Because I told the group I was at; Ive never had a girlfriend. At this point; I may not be commanded by God to do so again. This may be all I needed to do to satisfy Gods completion of my stay at the 12 step groups… The tactical goal God had created for me; Is complete; I can now move on….. I have nothing more to tell them….
The goal now is to slowly get away from the 12 step groups.. I simply silently walk away and allow God to replace this social with other social situations…. Other groups… I don’t know what they will be; but they will be back out in the real world…
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That is the idea… Amen.
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I pray for Gods will…
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Am I ready for this; well; Almost; I guess; enough… Why not… Im so close; close enough…. I still have gaps but their small relatively; I get what Ive earned; Ive earned to be up close to the next level of direction and new pathways from God….
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I say goodbye to the people in those meetings and move on to the next directions and experiences of new pathways that lead to new life somewhere else.
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I was expected to tell this recent and present situation the truth; That I had never really ever had a girlfriend. Ive never had a girlfriend… I was in some kind of altered dementia. I was fooling myself on all fronts and all subjects. I had become dissociated from reality when very young and never came out of it.
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I have now graduated from these groups. I will not tell them… But God has completed me in those places.
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God has shown signs it is time to move on.
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The key now is to prepare. Meditation and an honest look of what I really want; writing new stories about this; that is the goal….
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I will pray deeply to God concerning these things… Amen.
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I have passed control by others to face; to break through….
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I will be in new situations and locations… Amen…. I believe…. But what is involved in the present is over…
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God will move me on…
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