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This is getting old. by RunawayFaye on Mon Apr 21, 2014 5:15 am
Are people actually supposed to live like this? This isn't living, this is just sh*t. A normal life involves healthy interpersonal relationships, activities one enjoys, some sort of happiness at all. I'm 30 years old and one of my girlfriends works in home healthcare and she goes, "You're on more medication than most of my old people." Seriously, three pills for the mood stabilizer, four for anxiety, one for sleep (that doesn't work), one for depression, and one to block the alcohol and opiate cravings. We don't even really know what the long-term effects are for ONE of these medications, let alone all of them put together. I'm doing everything the doctors are telling me to do, and them some, and this is still the hardest period of my life. Alcohol was killing me. My damn liver shut down in October. But at least I would have died happily. I knew that whatever happened, whatever some callous asshole said to me that day, a couple drinks and it was all gone. No more. Game over. Vodka was my best friend, and my best friend damn near killed me. With my emotions going all up and down and sideways it's exhausting, and I still can't sleep. There has to better way than this. In a world of massive uncertainty there is one thing I know for sure. At this rate, I'm not going to make it another 30 years. There's this black cloud of emotional torture that follows me everywhere I go, and no one understands it. I'm all alone on this one. My ex-boyfriend would always try to tell me how much he was there for me and blah blah whatever. Really? Unless you're sitting inside this sick and twisted brain of mine holding my hand through these feelings that drive a person bonkers, then I'm all alone. The only one stuck in my head is me, and that's how it's always going to be. F*ck. My. life.

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sad by catgirl on Sat Apr 06, 2024 12:58 am
What to do..
Postby catgirl » Fri Jun 06, 2008 9:16 am

I have been in a relationship for a long time and I feel like it will never progress to the next level. I have a lot of baggage that I got therapy ...

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The beginning of the bigger change by OMNICELL on Thu Apr 04, 2024 7:56 am
Things are changing; they are creeping in; my new life; new possibilities if I play my cards right; Im getting closer to the development of a concrete part of life that seeps into the empty spaces...

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The sensitive part of real by OMNICELL on Sun Mar 31, 2024 11:33 pm
The sensitive part of real!
The real me; the sensitive part with no parents when young; alone; no nothing! And it was that part that Im coming into now. A decent person when young; no parents no...

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From single to Non single by OMNICELL on Fri Mar 29, 2024 6:45 am
From Single to Non Single.
First let me say; all things are under my higher power and I start with prayer and meditation under my higher power.. This is very important; all things taken to my higher...

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Manifesting new things by OMNICELL on Tue Mar 26, 2024 4:43 am
Dating women…
Talking to women…
That is the problem…
I look back at women I liked when young and I wanted to talk to but I couldn’t. No connection ever really happened. No one ...

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Re: Made a decision by NewSunRising on Wed Jun 14, 2023 12:14 pm
but not alone ... We are here for you if ever you need us . Hugs & love .

Re: Being gracious by quietgirl2538 on Mon Jun 05, 2023 4:45 am
I agree

Re: Been a while by quietgirl2538 on Mon Jun 05, 2023 4:45 am
Aww...Thanks snaga

Re: Being gracious by Snaga on Sun Jun 04, 2023 10:30 pm
I think sometimes, that things like that are more for our benefit, than for the one it's aimed at.

Re: Been a while by Snaga on Sun Jun 04, 2023 10:29 pm
Huh. I listen to a classic country station on my commute and was listening to a nice old Tanya song other morning. And I always wish you good fortune!

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