New concepts….
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Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.
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Dr Jekyll is the conservative; He takes responsibility for what he does; He learns the value of such things; because; It keeps me safe and private…
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Mr Hyde; Mr Hyde runs of with strangers; meeting new strangers blindly; He does not check first to make sure they are on my side; He doesn’t check anything about them; nothing; he walks blindingly into their lives without invitation; He cons and weasels and pretends and frauds and lies and misappropriates others times and well being. He ropes in; He deceives; misleads…
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And when Mr Hyde doesn’t succeed; He blames the world for his misgivings… He blames the world for his plight…
He ends up getting all of us tortured to death... Thus; an answer must be saught...
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What is the answer…
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I use the 4th step from 12 step meetings. I use written 4th steps; meaning a searching and fearless moral inventory of myself….
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What Ive found; Every person I was broken from outside of the original family system I came from; all of these people had 1 thing in common; I was never invited.
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The real me; the conservative me would have never met these people. If I had been inline with God; I would have stayed home; prayed and stayed with God and allowed God to manifest what I needed and what I was looking for; Manifested down a "God pathway… " I would have stayed on the path with my inner being and my Universe guidance system and God Universe; Holy Spiritus and Sunny Jesus and his Army of Justice league Holy Angels… The Frequency of the Universe would have been on my side.
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However; I broke the basic rule; Do not promote; attract!
My mistake; It was not attraction; it was promotion.
I was promoting myself to make friends or acquaintances or relationship; IT NEVER WORKED> When I could no longer entertain; no one was interested anymore…
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I never met anyone that was attracted to me. I didn’t attract anyone. In order to attract; I had to go through Jesus; God… Universe; and have God bring them to me… But I did not want to do that…
Why; I don’t know. Maybe I thought they would be Squire pegs n boring.. I don’t know. Now; Ive changed my mind.
Dear God; Im working through you now; down God pathway; help me God to stay the line; Help my faith and to be faithful God to the small things that you may find me in favor that I may graduate to the bigger things; Amen….
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And please help me to get through these Fearless Moral inventories God so I can finish them and come back to reality in one piece; Amen.