June 2025
May 2025
New Blog;
short but important.
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FIRST LOVE:
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The goal is to work through this past even with a find toothed comb. Look for the evidence that a relationship never existed; look for the evidence that she was never really interested in me nor attracted to me… And look for evidence I was wrong about her; she never liked me; did not want me around; and that she probably had a roaster of guys I did not know about she was seeing; I was simply lied to from the very start to the very finish as I meant nothing to her.
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The goal is to find evidence working with God to show it was a mistake to associate with this person; she was not any energy of God; she was not sent to help me serve me taking care of me; mother me love me; be obedient to me; She had no God as I know.
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I was looking for a girlfriend; and their was no one there for that purpose and thus I must retreat.
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The goal is to erase her from my existence completely as if I had never met her.
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In order to do this; I must work with God to re create a narrative life underneath this so when she is finally gone from my nervous system; God comes in very quickly with my original identity and that identity takes over again and fills my life again as if nothing ever happened.
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Am I making myself clear. Im at the next segment of dealing with FIRST LOVE>
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The goal with God.
I must get rid of FIRST LOVE completely from my mind and nervous system before I can move on.
Im doing a fairly good job with the skills I have obtained.
I still have much to go…
The goal is to roam free without a triggered thought of her ever again… And that will take more work.
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MUSIC:
Music creation.
What is my goal; Well; As I become or sane and Sober; I would like to be a professional musician. God has me starting at that level. Lots involved.
Without explaining why. Im virtually self taught; I don’t read piano music but I can compose with notation. I understand music theory and writing scores for myself but don’t read piano music from the piano. Its not that I cant; its just; Im not used to it.
I plan to write my own piano music and memorize it and play it; but im not a taught musician. Im somewhere in between…
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So; What ever is expected of me in order to be a professional musician; Ive been watching it on you-tube…
And Im getting an idea of the development in maturity and skills in order to be a professional at anything.
Im praying about this right now; We will see how what God does with this direction. Im really not trained at anything. I just fool around at home with things.
Ive played drums when I was younger in bands and thats it.
I would like to play guitar and keys in a band; but I have no idea. I mean. Anyway; Id be starting at the very very beginning with Gods help. We will see; Ill talk to God. Amen.
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