June 2025
May 2025
My brother was never suppose to help me.
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When young; as a teenager≥..
My brother bought and had all kinds of cars; Looking back now; I do not remember where my older brother cared what happened to me at all. I certainly didnt care if I ever had a car; nothing.
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I never looked at it this way until the universe opened it up for me; This was a personal journey of mine; not to have someone else involved in the way he was involved; I become co depended on him for all things mechanical. I was traumatized out of existence with serious mental health problems to the point of complete withdrawal from life.
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My brother was not suppose to be around me or in my life ever. I did not know this. But God knew this.
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I remember my brother with all those motor cycles and stuff and cares; and I had nothing. No one cared about my development; nothing. He did not care; later he kind of did; but not my development.
I should have never been around him ever.
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So; what should I have been; I should have been independent life. This means; I meet friends concerning cars and do my own mechanics and think about my own car during those teen age years and meet new friends and talk car stuff with them.
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Also; also looking back; I spent time around the wrong people in the neighborhood I grew up in. Looking back; it was so easy to be around someone and then suddenly go home from school and call that person up again so I could spend time at his house because I did not want to be alone at mine,. And there it is; that is why I called that person; no other reason; He was a snake and a complete stranger and dangerous; but I did not know that. He was white collar sociopathic dangerous; con man. Had wealthy parents; I had no idea about wealthy kids; I do know... They should only be around other wealthy kids; they are un scrupulous horror shows; more monster robot then human.
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So; back to the car thing. I had no real brother. Thats the problem; he scared me... I did not know what I was suppose to do with him or his problems. No one was looking out for me.
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Back to the car thing.
Now; I have the opportunity to do this again; my teenage years. my personality has gotten to the point of about 15/17 years old in emotional age. And that part of me is the age of thinking about wheels; cars... its that time period; And that is great; However, there is another part of self to go with it; the part that works with the universe to pay for those wheels; However that may be done.
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SO; I get to relive my teen years again; this time more correctly; and that means more alone from the amount of bad people in my past. This time; Im more alone with more select kind of people; and as for cars; Hey; Im on my own. I mean; its not my brothers business or anyone else; its my independent life... And I will think about my car and pick it for myself; work with the universe; both of us together working to pay for it,. The universe is the brains and the plans are sent to me. I show the heart n soul of what I want. really get into what I want.. And then the universe tell me where to go to find it and pay for it. The universe paying for it.
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And other things; I mean; Im independent from the start concerning cars; its like; thats my business no one elses; my car stuff; thats between me and my friends; no one else. my private stuff. between me and me alone; and thats it. no one else; including any brothers.
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So; I get to go through this; I have to make friends with those people that know about cars; Not turn to my brother for anything; He should not be involved in my person private life at all.
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So; their it is kind of.
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Im slowly moving toward my own life; and this time not that flunky from down the street when I was young; worthless weirdo... keep away from those trash filth. Never go near them; all things are going to be reversed. Ill find another way to recreate my young life within my imagination doing it right this time. Ill sacrifice and let go of the bike rides and times spent in his backyard; This time Ill make friends somewhere else and do things with others and stay away from that creepo........ or any of the others down the street from me. Ill work with God on that and make other friends... and do the things I was suppose to in that time period to build my life.
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