June 2025
May 2025
It is over….
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I must heal……
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Its as if I was under the spell of a Witch….
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The universe has brought me out of it…
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Now; everything has changed. And Ive come back to myself….
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Im speaking of FIRST LOVE; Or what ever monstrosity that was….
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And what evil this is….
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A whole family of Evil. Only through God when I discovered the brother was just as evil and a part of his sister; it was like a team of vampires feeding on and finding victims… One would set up the victim and then bring the other to his sister. They were truly pure evil.. Monsters… Working together….
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Dangerous… Pure psychopaths…
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One is pulled in never to be seen again…
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God has rescued me; But rescued me to what?
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Suddenly my mind is peaceful and in the present… Im in my Right Mind… Kind of; much like the Witcher video game… Atleast the games before the Woke corrupted them….
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Here I am; suddenly everything is quiet; like being in a jail cell all this time… Never realizing I was in my mind and within my mind in a vast coffin of poison; where my delusions were fighting imaginary monsters; and hoping to surface some day; if I did surface; what would I surface to? Surface to what…
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It has been done..
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She is no more…..
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Acceptance is of the day…
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It is what I asked for; Asked for from God….
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Im still bloody beat up from the street up! My nervous system feels like it went through a tug-a-war…. My mind is about the only thing left in tact; well; I should say my soul is free.. A part of my troubled soul is suddenly here and in peace…
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Its been freed…
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Now What!
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I slowly learn how to live again.
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And all of this I asked God for; many moons ago…
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I am no longer hooked at the edges of this insanity; I have fallen from it; fallen to the ground where I just lay… I lay and look up… I am now at a more grounded level where the evil cant touch me; cant find me; For; The meek shall inherit the earth.
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Will I have to write more on that past situation? I don’t think so. I think Im done…
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Do I feel done. Yes; I crossed a divide… To the other side.
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I may not be in very good shape; after such a long fight; but its over…
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If I have grievousness and resentments and anger and quiet discontent; it wont be connected to that part of my past; the part with the Witch… For there is no more “ part of me with the witch”; it is gone..
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I feel strange; almost sick to my stomach; kind of!
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I feel weak and torn down. I feel lost and found at the same time…
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I feel restless and at peace at the same time.
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I know I wont be going back to that subject.. Not for a long time.
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The main parts of this story; Ive unhinged/ unleashed from and fallen away…
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No longer belong to the spell that harnessed me and rode me like a ghosted horse on a white crystal cold snowy sparkling night…
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I wake up realizing what Ive not been doing for most of my life; Living. My mind was consumed; looking for relief…
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Now; I have a strange relief; It comes from God… The universe…
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It will take some time to get used to; to be free… \.
Im not sure what freedom is?
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Im not sure I can ever go back.. back to the spell that rendered me useless and broken. I may have awaken permanently… I think… Yes; still more fights in the present to deal with… But not with the Witch or her evil clansman….
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I am still mentally ill; I still have many fights and battles to deal with. I still have other monsters to give way to God...
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It is stressful to be awake..
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