I was getting help with something; I was laying down on a table; A female technician to my right; sitting down working at the computer; with several others in the room…
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This female tech looked at me; smiling; and said; where are you working; She was curious about me. I said; “ I haven't worked in 30 years”. She kind of reeled back; she realized I was wasn't joking.
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She then mumbled something to her friends; smiling and stunned. She looked back at me and said; What do you; I said; “ HIDE”. She was curious; Where; she said; In my Apartment.. and she smiled still stunned; and said; quietly; I wish I could do that.
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This is an example of me being honest first; I showed who I am first; Either this person is kind of in my Tribe or not… or in the general areas of a door opening or a door shut…
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At the store… Im in line at the grocery store; and then Im up with a female grocery clerk. I decide to practice; I start talking to her. I say something kind of pleasant and funny. She smiles.. at some point; I pull out my EBT Card; My worst nightmare of no Status in my country; Just horrible for me… For my worth.
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But I did something; After using it; I said to her; “ You have a Wonderful Day” or a Terrific day”. Or “ A Very Terrific day”/ And I added feeling to it… Real feeling to it. I had to look at her with with self worth and expression… emotional value; Totally open with a positive open expression…
And totally open with a smile while showing my EBT Card.
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What does this mean; I means Im accepting who I am as I am where I am. By doing this; I can grow as is. I can develop my better attitude… being open and expressive of the truth of my real life.
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