September 2025
August 2025
Its about; meditation; prayer; working with the universe/higher power; inner being. my inner being knows what I need and who I am and what interests me on a daily basis. My inner being is hooked up to the guidance system through the universe; it gets its information from the universe; its plugged in; the problem is; am I plugged in to my inner being; if I am; did I turn the speakers up so I can hear my inner being when my inner being is trying to talk to me and direct me and tell me what I want to do... ?
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Rehabilitation is what its about; Life is simple but hard. ITs about experience; its not about /dumb-smart-brilliant-ignorant-not so smart-stupid-intelligent: Its not about any of those.
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Today; its about 10,000 hours into an area of interest; finishing what I start; thats what its about; its about experience. Its about getting experience for those things the general normal person takes for granted on a daily basis; ( Nothing against them; Just using them as an example). The normal person goes to school; struggles; and or does well; has friends; works; had girlfriends; sometimes relationships that work; sometimes they dont; gets a job; career; gets married; has a house; a car; hobbies; and so fourth; vacations...... kids maybe; cabin; promotions/money; investments and so on; car or cars...
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For all of those things Ive mentioned above; all of those things are way off the charts for me considering my disability. However, after years of recovery work; its hard but not impossible. Its possible with support from God and man and groups; to set a goal for a thing; set steps to the goal; began to work on the steps of that goal. It matters not what it is; I believe if its money/relationships/use of talents/school classes/vacations/auto's or Art; It doesnt matter; Losing weight; its all a goal and for me; the way to succeed at these things are to set goals and work toward the goal; certainly staying in contact all the time with a higher power is absolute on an hourly basis; and writing about these goals; the completion of these goals and how wonderful it feels to complete these goals; and to write positive stories about them is essential. My inner being knows my goals of interest. . Thus; the more I get in touch with my inner being and listen; I will learn what interests me and I will learn what makes me feel good when I get up in the morning; what kinds of things I want to do that are interesting enough to get up for.
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The book; Think and Grow Rich; is a good example of the basics of all this. and thus; Laws of attraction coaches on Youtube go to with this... ALl give a good example of success thinking.
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If I work at things everyday with the right attitude; things are possible; Things happen.
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First;
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Meditation to get in touch with my inner being who is in touch with the universe; Im looking for purpose; life purpose; what turns me and what I get up in the morning for. What would I like to be doing if I had a Trillion dollars and could do anything all day long; go anywhere; what would it be.,
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In fact; I aught to write stories about this all the time; and I will; if I had all the money in the world; what would I be doing... where would I be and with whom.
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If I was successful with everything I touch; what would I be doing all day long.
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What do I want to accomplish!
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What would feel good for me to do; what is interesting for me when I get up in the morning I want to focus and concentrate on those things that make me feel good.
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What makes me feel good. What activities; what would I be doing.
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The goal is experience.
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The goals require support; I have a large amount of general support from 12 step groups and 12 step fellowships.
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For example; lets say:
My inner being fills me with the goal of meeting new people. I have long term Severe PTSD; How do I do this social thing. I practice....
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So; I have steps associated with that goal; each step I take to my higher power and let the universe unbaffle this for me. In meditation or after; I start receiving answers from the universe; to what these steps are; and I immediately start working at these steps. Small actions; but do something under the care of my higher power; usually something basic.
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I keep imagining the steps to my goal and putting names to these steps as I move from one to another. The names of the steps indicate a progression from one beginning level to another. One step finished leads to a new step undiscovered; when that is completed; at some point; all steps get completed and its time for the final step; to work with the main goal.
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AVPD: Avoidance! Im finding I dont feel safe out here in the world; Im constant freeze mode; makes it hard to want to finish anything; its to revealing and scary; someone can use it against me or attack me openly; However, deep down I want the results a finished goals creates. However; I want to avoid at the last minute to survive; Im triggered and everything is paranoia.
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I want to continue. I can follow through.
;So; the goal in life is the goals in life; following through until I have success with each goal finished; each goal finished is a success. Each step finished to a goal is success.
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I was taught how to be destroyed and defeated against my will; I dont want this; I want success.
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I'm moving into a new spectrum.
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its all about positive goals today.
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Its about shoving the negative out.
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What do I want; take action on it. This can mean taking on steps toward what I want. IT means creating steps in my imagination and working through each step until I hit my goal. How bad do I want it.
Ive got a problem; Ive had a problem; negative beliefs associated with things... with goals; they have to go; I cant afford it.
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Im not interested in putting my goals on loan. I want the money to pay for them before I get involved.
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Anyway. Ill keep working with God on things...
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The real goal is positive outlook on what I want... I cant say this any better; I mean; the first goal is a positive goal for something.. FOr example. If I wanted a car and insurance and gas. in my situation; what do I want; how do I get it; how does all of this come about? Do I really want one? I want what a car will give me for travel... I have to trust God for the rest; at some point I let God fight these battles for these things... and I stand tall and get on with my life.
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I have to stop thinking and let the universe answer these things...
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I wanted to use my telescope; but in safe places; private places to look at the stars. I wanted a backyard to use my telescope; but I never believed it was possible. And I think this is a good example of where my negetive mind is at. Some believe they will have a backyard and they end up with one; Ive got to do the same; so; how do I do this; thats what Im working on. I know I have negative thoughts that creep in on me and take my mind over; but they have to be replaced with new ones. and I have to keep at it until I create new stories for myself. This is where the work is.
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I could bring up goals; but what for. I mean; specific goals; I dont need to; the problem is in the process.
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Challenges are; whats the end goal Im looking for? What do I want. What does it look like and feel like. I have to learn not to give up. I have to learn to have a visual of what I want and stick to it. Work toward it; work with the universe on working toward it.
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I can create art; but for what reason; what purpose; what is the end goal for success as an artist; what does this vision statement look like. I dont know; Ive never had one. Ill work with the universe on this and other goals.
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Im scared to death of the journey involved. I dont want to get hurt or ripped apart on my journey.
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I seem to have a problem believing anything good can happen for me. Ive got to break this way of thinking with Gods help.
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Ill start the process.
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I think Im going to look at all the negative that pops out in each of my stories; the limited beliefs and list them and reverse my thinking on them; The stories have to be re thought into positive possibilities.
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I suffer from a severe kind of closed minded negative limited thinking. Like; Im worth nothing and I came from nothing real; I was thrown away from what I thought I came from; so I came from nothing!
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CAR:
Ive never had my own car and extras on my own. Nothing. Never; talking about it means ON My Own. Thats the important issue. And thats where there is no confidence or belief in myself or In God helping me; so thats where the work is... THats what I have to work with; that area that was destroyed.
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My stories have to be positive and I want to be celebrated on every step I accomplish toward that goal.
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Im also praying about where I can go to to work on these goals; the kind of recovery; recovery people; and what I will be working on to accomplish these goals.
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its as if all I know is defeat and I expect it because Im not worth anymore then this; its really important to have a new life where things work out for me and this past life of nonsense is finished along with chasing useless un prosperous ideas and useless un prosperous people. Man! How much time did I waist on waistoid poeple and things?
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Im blind and cannot see. All i see is the outside world; a place indifferent and alien to me; completely overwhelming; the place does not interest me as it sits. Its to high a ledge to climb. I have no ladder and no one is offering me one; even if they did; Im climbing over a wall to find another empty space next to a wall; it seems like everywhere I look in the outside physical world; that is all I see; it overwhelms me.
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On the other side is working with others; It seems like Im a slave to people and thus; dont want to have anything to do with them.
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my nervous system is blind and I cannot see; that is why I need the universe to see for me; to see a life of value out in this cave system of uselessness called society.
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So; with the universe; its like having a guide; flash light and a map in the darkness.
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Society is a foreign language to me.
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Higher power and the secret.
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Ive used the secret many times; laws of attraction and the secret; The secret means; if i want something bad enough and I show this interest to the universe enough; I send out a big enough signal; take action over n over; the universe will help out at some point. Ive seen this over n over and it is truly magic.
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The problem I have is; I have a brain full of pre conceived negative ideas and ideals shoved down my throat by abusers when young; and I had no other training by anyone; it was a complete life of failure... and it was much worse; I completely demoralized and bottem'd out.
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SO; OKEY; Now that Ive survived most of that; all of that; How am I now; disabled mentally; litereally on the trauma based spectrum... I suffer from all of it...
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And; Im now on the other side; Im now on the recovery rehabilitation level of things. How do I get back to having a normal life; normal happy living and sustain the success ideal. How can that happen for a guy like me whose been hiding in 12 step groups for a 3rd of his life; thats what all of this writing is about; making that change over into the real world again.
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At some point about 8-10 years ago; 2014; THe universe brought me the interest of new ways of thinking; success based thinking. and Ive been studying it ever since. My goal is to constantly work on new goals and apply what ive learned.
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Most of what I write about is re hash of what Ive written in numerous blogs in the past; and its necessary to keep writing about it and keep showing the new slants of thinking Ive attempted for the purpose of success and to report if Ive learned anything or had any real success from it; did it work and how is the universe working with me on a daily basis for re establishing my life...
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