OMNICELL's Blog

by **OMNICELL** on Fri Jul 25, 2025 6:34 am

The new step with God concerning dating….
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Dear God; show me how to interact with the people you are sending; How to meet them…
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This means; I go somewhere and show up and out of a crowd of people or something; or I meet someone randomly or through a friend; maybe its someones sister or something…
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Its learning all the preparation of meeting someone.
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This is truly the next step.
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Certainly Ive studied such techniques through books n websites for years; This is something different; this is from Gods perspective… This is real world. Into the real world I go…
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Ill be learning how to handle the real world… until I find those people God is sending me…
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Ive noticed 2 kinds of people; Asian Girls or Quaker girls… That seems to be who shows up. Thats literally who has shown up… But Im to bashful to say hello or take it any further… I wouldn't the slightest how to take it any further.
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Its more like I see these people but they are not accessible. I would have to meet them through a friend or at a party or something… Ill work with God on these things.
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How would I know who to call or ask out. What about age. Im an old man. Any old man will always feel comfortable thinking they can go out with younger women. But they cant or they are dreaming; will be led on and dumped by those younger women; But who knows.
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These are the chances I have to prepare for…
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Sometimes I feel this is ridiculous; Like Im just way to old for any of this. To attract anyone; but the other day at the Post Office some chick was checking me out….
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I have to learn to give God a chance with me in these situations. Its so heart rendering; so much horror and damage from all of this when young. I stopped dating before I started; never got involved again after the first girl I loved; realized I meant nothing to her and I was being played. I don’t like to admit it but its true. This was happening because this was the wrong person to associate with. But no one could tell me. I knew everything. I was horribly insecure and needy; I had no love and was thrown away… but the world did not care; No one did. I had no friends; nothing.
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This one girl I called and wanted to take an interest had no interest in me. I think I was around just for her kicks for a few months; she had no real other prospects yet and just kind of let me hang around; but I meant nothing to her… no respect for me; just contempt and little if no attraction; nothing… I had the unfortunate concept of thinking I could help her because she was not loved. Unfortunately I did not know what I was talking about. She was just fine. I was the one that needed to be loved; not this person; and I will pay for my folly of finding myself at the wrong house with the wrong people.
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I was no longer interested in ever getting involved with women ever again. I had seen to much… They were horrible people. Monsters… I had no idea… They were like criminals. Godless… Even those claiming to be involved with God; Nothing; just a show or a front. These people were not safe!
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Now I seek my very first girlfriend.
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When I was 14; This First girl I met Ive described above was suppose to be my first girlfriend; Never turned out. I never got anywhere… she was not interested in someone like me. I was crushed and heart broken. No matter what I did or how hard I tried; she simply made it clear she could get better… And hopeless I finally gave up and just dropped out and went away.
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Now; under God; Ill see what can happen. See What God wants for me… I just wanted a wife; a girlfriend that turns into a wife; thats all I ever wanted. I still believe. The problem has been; Wrong people…
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So; Ill be working with God on this concept of leaving the wrong people alone and concentrating on the right ones.
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This is by far the worst type of thing to go through; its just horrible…. Having to go throu...

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by **OMNICELL** on Fri Jul 25, 2025 5:03 am

Strange thing happened tonight…
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I was in a meeting and a women across from me in the meeting; someone Ive seen before; she was sitting up against the wall across from me. It was not a nice scene; it was competitive and stressful. Many times Ive seen women weaponize this situation. If I look up simply to look up from my angle; Ive got that women right direction in front of me on the opposite wall; Suddenly she starts to squirm as if shes being visually taken advantage of. Ive seen it 1000000000 times. Nothing new… And it was happening again this time. Its like shes not safe; shes got a needy hovering guy checking her out or something; someone who doesn’t have a chance with her. When in reality; non of us guys have any other place to look.. We lift our heads and their she is before we can dart one way or the other…
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I finally gave up and just looked at that floor or to the sides or took my writing note book in and wrote instead of looking around…
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I LEARNED SOMETHING TONIGHT….
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Its getting very close; I don’t have to take my romantic problems to anyone accept God; I don’t have to expect anything from these strangers at a meeting; I can for go all of them and just take myself and my goals to God and bi pass all of this.
And that is what Ive been working for concerning this goal of relationship. I used the groups therapeutically; working through my stuff; until I didn’t need them for it anymore; it all gets switched to God. I began to get enough skills learned on my own to stand on my own 2 feet and go after what I want; I turn to God and my success based thinking information Ive been studying for several years. I still go to the meetings; but don’t need the meetings anymore to help support this process Im learning about the beginning processes of getting back into relationship at this point in my life. And has this happened? No! Not yet; But tonight surprised me; I actually felt it. Heck with these people in these meetings. Im strong enough now to simply take it all to God and work with God directly; And that was the message I was getting from God.. Im getting close… I didn’t expect that tonight. I never saw it coming…
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Im still working through issues concerning relationships.
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In my life when young; I was completely devoid of reality or being part of it; but I was attracting massive women from everywhere. But because it was all physical. I never really learned how to go after the right girl for a relationship.
I was inundated with massive amount of beautiful women… The best looking women in town… but non of it did me any good. I had nothing in common with these people; I was lonely the whole time. Finally I just gave up. I didn’t care anymore; I gave up on the whole idea of having any relationship with anyone… I just walked away and never returned. Anytime I saw a beautiful women I just about puked. I didn’t want them within 100 miles me. I simply didn’t want anything more to do with the dating or romance process in my country… Nothing made any sense…
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The first girl I attempted to like; I was destroyed.. it was like I had my arms bit off. Nothing made any sense…
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I got know where because I did not want to date any of these people; They horrified me… it was unbelievable.
I just gave up and never came back.
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TO THE PRESENT:
After being in the recovery process; God said to me. “ Omnicell”; If you would stop dating those kind of women all of these problems with them will stop! This hit me hard. I never saw this from that perspective.
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But the most important perspective God was trying to give me; If I didn’t attract those kind of women; What then would I do now? I would be just like everyone else who had to learn how to go out and find a girlfriend; Some girl that was my best friend; Thats an inside job; thats not about her looks; thats about who she is on the inside; Finding someone that actually liked me val...

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by **OMNICELL** on Thu Jul 24, 2025 8:47 pm

Signs are showing the present areas Im involved in or have been; Im sailing through and possibly going beyond the boarder line of this present condition situation and perimeter.
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When I grow out of my present situation; people show up from the past; usually people of stress I did not like or get along with; and its possible; or women who liked me and wouldnt change so I never really started with them. Never got close.
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I just got innocently and authentically presented as a married man with a wife and children and house and car; 100% by someone; As if I was a normal married man under the stress of having a family and house and car and kids and family; It was from God; it slammed me like a tsunami.
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I really felt it when that Gent said that to me and the group. He said it in front of the group; Im not sure he even knew what he was doing… I don’t think he did; it was strait from the universe and I felt it; I felt the responsibility I would be under; the stress.. I really felt it; like I was married and has responsibility. It also had a feeling of being connected to my childhood; that being married is where I was suppose to be; or have been…
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SO; here I am.. Its slowly materializing.
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Today at the big store; more people showing up from the past; right in front of me… When I was and have been thinking and working on visualizing a wife and children. Suddenly out of know where; women from the past are showing up around me.. Fair enough; I get it; its the universe sending clues.
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Now; as I get stronger; and Ill have to keep working on it; Ive got allot of growing up to do in a specific area where there is nothing but a hallow non development; its a place I was thrown away… and now working God; Im slowly waking up to it and finding myself closer and closer to walking through that time portal to a new life… its closer; all of this. And it hurts really bad… all of this.
Well; Im moving toward participating in a areas. And Im growing through it and into it!.. \
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Im having to wake up where Im in massive pain from being thrown away and exposed to horror with no help; no one on my side; no way out; nothing; God is making me relive it; go through it at-least to come out on the other side. Amen
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Im simply going through all of this; I don’t know where its going to end up…
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by **OMNICELL** on Mon Jul 21, 2025 2:45 am

So; some of the girls in this recent episode of my development; They are truly not my friends. I got played or worse. What ever that can be. They are cold as ice with me as if I never met them; they could care less who I am; if they ever see me again; Nothing. I was simply put in my place by them. I assume a game they were playing with other women in the group to push it and see if they could put me in my place. They are certainly not friends of mine.
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How do I feel; Nothing! Im not stupid enough to fall for those things. Would I did do was fall inline with my higher power and allow my higher power to send me in a direction; and it happened and I gained advantage and experience; It was like a quantum shift; what happened. With in a few weeks to a month. I became popular with many women; and thus was see by other women and noticed and some of them taking notice began to call me out. I; in my innocence; actually had no reason to believe anything other then; they were genuinely interested in me; They were not; they were cold heartedly playing me with absolutely no interest in ever talking to me or seeing me again. They could care less who I am or that they ever saw her heard me speak or ever met me for the short time they did.
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This is what I know. I have to slowly allow God to take me over into the next threshold. It is upon me.
Ill explain.
This girl that played me. She actually allowed me to gain some very important experience down my God Pathway toward my wife; but first toward opening up to the world and dating again. I came within the last moment of actually dating someone again after numerous years out of the circle of this kind of thing.
In order for me to date; I have to be back in; in with people; with society; back in with women; within the middle circle. And that is what is happening. God made it happen…
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However; I never was able to follow through; I never received another text and the person has never talked to me since; and appears to act like I have never met her… I can see the hostility and contempt in her face; a kind of anger and stern hatred of no interest for me.
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Ive stayed to my myself now; from that crowd. Im no longer around any of those people. Im not popular anymore; I literally dislocated myself from those people. And im not popular anymore.
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After all of this; other events occurred in a truly favorable manner… a real intimacy night with many of us in the recovery process sitting and talking about dating. It was truly God created. I was in shock this would ever happen for me; to feel “ IN” again like this; like feeling like I belonged to one big family.
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Then; ;later; a week later; I told the story of change. And another women spouted out; Hey I think Im going to the park and feed the ducks after the meeting. That would have been a cue for me to meet up with this other person and feed the ducks with her; thus establishing a kind of date. And that would have pulled me over into that world… Im that close… But I didn’t; I know the person. But just didn’t jump on that situation. Another will occur.
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So; Im in this place. God wants me to learn abundance! That means; theirs more then one girl on planet earth; I may have to learn what women have to deal with in life; Having numerous girl in waiting because I don’t know which will strike that match between us. I might try out several God has sent but for what ever reason; it never happens. And then finally with enough experience; Ill be so close to meeting the right one; having us at each others frequency; It may be in walking distance that I find her. But only at that point of experience.
Im now moving into the frame of area; meaning that new describe place where I take women to the park and we feed the ducks. What ever that may mean; but it means; the beginning of actual dating. And I believe Ill meet many women first and get lots of experience under God with this...

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by **OMNICELL** on Sun Jul 20, 2025 5:36 am

So; I deal with my first interactive crisis as being my new person… After taking an interest in her; Im ghosted. No problem; I did see her again in a meeting place; I ignored her but if I didn’t completely ignore her. If Ieven looked up; she is right there to check me; I can feel and see it; that she took it as her catching me looking her; ego boost. Her Ego Boost. So; I lose my position of power with her… Why; because thats all the importance I have with her… When in reality; I actually liked her because I thought she would be someone I could get to know and talk to; that idea was all wasted on the wrong person.
She is not trying to get to know me. I basically never retext her. I just walked away… But Ive found; no matter what I do; she will gas light me every time I see her….
I got emotionally invested to early. I just thought the person was sincere. She had no interest in me; she was just getting my attention for a moment. She kind of flipped the script on me. My innocence and decency were weaponized against me. I just never saw her like that the few times I talked to her…
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So; it begins…
However; because Im getting more confident around women; One women kind of suggested that she was going to the park to feed the ducks; I suppose I could have asked this new person if I join them; I thought maybe thats what she was implying. So; that takes things to the next step. That means I move on completely. This is not my friend.
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And I have to move on. Im just being played by fools…. Maybe Im actually wrong; but I doubt it. I don’t think anything is here; I was interested in her; she has no interest in me; And knowing this and working with God; I move on. I tell God; “ If you sent her to me God; she is causing violations”.
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What Im saying; I have to work with God; and move on completely and learn about abundance!
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I must work with God and let God bring more women to my life…
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I have to get to the point that I never look at this person ever again for any reason… And their it is. Im being played..
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GOAL;
The goal is to start moving on…..
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Really moving on!
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I will never see this person again; and their it is… Thats the way it goes. Im just starting out; and my mistakes and being around the wrong people will happen.
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So; this is a good lesson concerning God help me and me depending on God to move on.
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This is the big lesson to learn…. Ive been played; it will happen again. And maybe she never played me; she simply had no interest in me but was polite…
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I must get on my knees and pray and start again and keep going...and I will, Am.
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Im not good enough or experienced enough with women and relationships; to be enough for a person like this; instead; I don’t have all those things I need to associate with.
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Here behavior doesn’t align with my standards….
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I don’t barter
I don’t beg
I don’t plead…
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I never and never come back ever… And their It always has bee
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So; my ego has to be reduced in this; as I thought that maybe I was liked by someone; but I was wrong. So I have to go on forward….
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This was never my friend. I was dismissed.
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and another women came along right after this that would have maybe gone and fed the ducks with. But I didn’t ask; but it looked like the opportunity was present.
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Ill keep working with God and imagine new people; Please God; please help me; Amen.
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Mountain biking;
Well; after 10 years and saving allot of money and going into dept and accepting the price of a new mountain bike; I just bought one. I had to work with God until I was simply doing what God said; because I allowed to receive this direction from God. I had to get below God and learn to take directions from God.
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I made a mistake. I make mistakes all the time… if I would just stay inline with my inner being; and learn that lesson;
Im costing myself self destruction and masochism… I was s...

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The new step with God concerning dating….

Strange thing happened tonight…

Going beyond the boarder line of this present reality

Getting close to a new quantum leap into a new area of developme

So; I deal with my first interactive crisis

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