July 2025
June 2025
So; I deal with my first interactive crisis as being my new person… After taking an interest in her; Im ghosted. No problem; I did see her again in a meeting place; I ignored her but if I didn’t completely ignore her. If Ieven looked up; she is right there to check me; I can feel and see it; that she took it as her catching me looking her; ego boost. Her Ego Boost. So; I lose my position of power with her… Why; because thats all the importance I have with her… When in reality; I actually liked her because I thought she would be someone I could get to know and talk to; that idea was all wasted on the wrong person.
She is not trying to get to know me. I basically never retext her. I just walked away… But Ive found; no matter what I do; she will gas light me every time I see her….
I got emotionally invested to early. I just thought the person was sincere. She had no interest in me; she was just getting my attention for a moment. She kind of flipped the script on me. My innocence and decency were weaponized against me. I just never saw her like that the few times I talked to her…
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So; it begins…
However; because Im getting more confident around women; One women kind of suggested that she was going to the park to feed the ducks; I suppose I could have asked this new person if I join them; I thought maybe thats what she was implying. So; that takes things to the next step. That means I move on completely. This is not my friend.
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And I have to move on. Im just being played by fools…. Maybe Im actually wrong; but I doubt it. I don’t think anything is here; I was interested in her; she has no interest in me; And knowing this and working with God; I move on. I tell God; “ If you sent her to me God; she is causing violations”.
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What Im saying; I have to work with God; and move on completely and learn about abundance!
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I must work with God and let God bring more women to my life…
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I have to get to the point that I never look at this person ever again for any reason… And their it is. Im being played..
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GOAL;
The goal is to start moving on…..
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Really moving on!
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I will never see this person again; and their it is… Thats the way it goes. Im just starting out; and my mistakes and being around the wrong people will happen.
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So; this is a good lesson concerning God help me and me depending on God to move on.
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This is the big lesson to learn…. Ive been played; it will happen again. And maybe she never played me; she simply had no interest in me but was polite…
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I must get on my knees and pray and start again and keep going...and I will, Am.
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Im not good enough or experienced enough with women and relationships; to be enough for a person like this; instead; I don’t have all those things I need to associate with.
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Here behavior doesn’t align with my standards….
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I don’t barter
I don’t beg
I don’t plead…
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I never and never come back ever… And their It always has bee
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So; my ego has to be reduced in this; as I thought that maybe I was liked by someone; but I was wrong. So I have to go on forward….
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This was never my friend. I was dismissed.
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and another women came along right after this that would have maybe gone and fed the ducks with. But I didn’t ask; but it looked like the opportunity was present.
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Ill keep working with God and imagine new people; Please God; please help me; Amen.
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Mountain biking;
Well; after 10 years and saving allot of money and going into dept and accepting the price of a new mountain bike; I just bought one. I had to work with God until I was simply doing what God said; because I allowed to receive this direction from God. I had to get below God and learn to take directions from God.
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I made a mistake. I make mistakes all the time… if I would just stay inline with my inner being; and learn that lesson;
Im costing myself self destruction and masochism… I was setting myself up for torture. I did this because thats how my parents treated me.
Now; Im interested in honoring my inner being and following only my inner being; Dear God; please save me from myself; please teach me God how to honor my inner being God; please help me God amen.
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Just; keep praying… praying for the ability to trust and get out of the way of my inner being. Stop going against it; or making outward moves against it. I have to hold off and do nothing. I am to only follow my inner beings direction and that is all; and find out first what direction that is and stay out of controlling anything; Im now learning what that means. My God; please save me from myself; Amen.
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God please help me and save me amen.
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