Our partner
 by OMNICELL on Mon Aug 25, 2025 3:06 am
I never developed outside of television. I just didn’t. I got thrown away and then was destroyed; and it was over before it ever happened.
As I wake up now; its 1968…
I want to be like the Beatles… Again…. So; I go from TV to the real world… But it never happened.
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Thats what Im working on now.
However; I see the horrible from the past but I think I can slowly work with God to break through it…
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by OMNICELL on Sun Aug 24, 2025 10:21 pm
Im talking to other people…
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Ive noticed something;
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Im scared to get into a relationship; up close with certain women… its to much for me; Im to scared.
However; Ive noticed something…
Im much closer
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I mean; like a few feet from girls.. ( women I mean); I have to remember; this is 2025. In my time; we called them girls; adult women; They called us boys…. Adult men…
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The point is; the gap is closing… Im closer to their frequency; the frequency; the level at which women reside for relationships; the level relationships reside…
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However; an authentic gap resides… Its an untouched place since childhood. Its a place of a 7 year old.
I never had a mother; so that space; I never entered it. Never… Im guessing or I assume; it was a place for my mother; something my mother would have allowed; intimacy of security and caring; affection; Something I never got… ever…
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Ive never seen any modern women care; they certainly never cared about me getting this kind of care; so I just dropped away from them… No one cared about me so I dropped out or away….
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Now; the work Im doing is getting me closer…
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However; although I can kind of see the first of the new plans; It doesn’t mean Ive experienced anything yet.
I must take it all to God and allow God to take it further. And; I must imagine… Imagine Im close up in that gap between myself and a women; and interacting at that level gap.
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I can see this gap as what to work on… .\
I can see working on this gap as focus; instead of focusing on a specific women of interest; its better just to take this part of things to God. And work on them.
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I can see it; its me the small boy look upward to my mother; the connection that never occurred. And Ill work with God on this connection.
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I can also see my mother betraying me and neglecting me abandoning me… And no one cares… I can see the sadness of it.. and fear…
Never having a mother…
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This closeness that never occurred; Ill pray about it to God for help with this; and write stories about being with women interacting within this gap…
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Amen.
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by OMNICELL on Sat Aug 23, 2025 11:37 pm
Something is happening; a self actualization…
My frequency is rising. Why? Well; its always God; but something else is happening. I like myself more or feel better about myself or something. Or my frequency is coming back to middle class level; but no where complete; but it is happening; I would say authentically its happening at the beginning. I can see it and especially feel it… Its real and authentic; Im at the base building level if that. I mean; its appeared… .
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So… From there…..
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The women and life Im interested in are at a higher level. I thought it was far in front of me; something far outward. But its not; In reality; its alignment with the universe; and this can be worked on with various techniques..
The frequency of what I want is up; upward; its at a higher platue… This is me climbing the apple tree to get to the higher grain apples at the top of the tree…
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I attract the frequency of what Im looking for.
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What was I doing before this; I was looking at the lower level content; those apples hanging ghostly; dangling on the edge of the lower branches of the apple tree; Well; They may have still looked like delicious apples; but they are unhealthy on the inside...especially for human beings.
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Now; suddenly a quantum shift; but its a shift moving upward… suddenly Ive walked into a higher frequency of people places and things; its leading me back to middle class people; kind of… Something is happening.
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Something wonderful is happening; a self actualization… Im moving upward closer to what Im looking for… Im getting closer…
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I don’t know what it means but it feels so good… I have to just keep trusting God.. And see what happens. Amen.
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by OMNICELL on Sat Aug 23, 2025 7:11 am
Because I told the group I was at; Ive never had a girlfriend. At this point; I may not be commanded by God to do so again. This may be all I needed to do to satisfy Gods completion of my stay at the 12 step groups… The tactical goal God had created for me; Is complete; I can now move on….. I have nothing more to tell them….
The goal now is to slowly get away from the 12 step groups.. I simply silently walk away and allow God to replace this social with other social situations…. Other groups… I don’t know what they will be; but they will be back out in the real world…
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That is the idea… Amen.
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I pray for Gods will…
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Am I ready for this; well; Almost; I guess; enough… Why not… Im so close; close enough…. I still have gaps but their small relatively; I get what Ive earned; Ive earned to be up close to the next level of direction and new pathways from God….
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I say goodbye to the people in those meetings and move on to the next directions and experiences of new pathways that lead to new life somewhere else.
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I was expected to tell this recent and present situation the truth; That I had never really ever had a girlfriend. Ive never had a girlfriend… I was in some kind of altered dementia. I was fooling myself on all fronts and all subjects. I had become dissociated from reality when very young and never came out of it.
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I have now graduated from these groups. I will not tell them… But God has completed me in those places.
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God has shown signs it is time to move on.
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The key now is to prepare. Meditation and an honest look of what I really want; writing new stories about this; that is the goal….
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I will pray deeply to God concerning these things… Amen.
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I have passed control by others to face; to break through….
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I will be in new situations and locations… Amen…. I believe…. But what is involved in the present is over…
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God will move me on…
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by OMNICELL on Sat Aug 23, 2025 4:57 am
Ive never had a girlfriend… .
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When I can say that openly and honestly in a group or with an individual openly in society; When I can see this as easy as saying; “ Im eating an orange” or “ Im riding a bike”… When I can say this that easily; God then has shown me I am approved… And God will start me out on the new journey toward an actual wife sent from God… Amen
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