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by **OMNICELL** on Sat Aug 23, 2025 11:37 pm

Something is happening; a self actualization…
My frequency is rising. Why? Well; its always God; but something else is happening. I like myself more or feel better about myself or something. Or my frequency is coming back to middle class level; but no where complete; but it is happening; I would say authentically its happening at the beginning. I can see it and especially feel it… Its real and authentic; Im at the base building level if that. I mean; its appeared… .
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So… From there…..
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The women and life Im interested in are at a higher level. I thought it was far in front of me; something far outward. But its not; In reality; its alignment with the universe; and this can be worked on with various techniques..
The frequency of what I want is up; upward; its at a higher platue… This is me climbing the apple tree to get to the higher grain apples at the top of the tree…
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I attract the frequency of what Im looking for.
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What was I doing before this; I was looking at the lower level content; those apples hanging ghostly; dangling on the edge of the lower branches of the apple tree; Well; They may have still looked like delicious apples; but they are unhealthy on the inside...especially for human beings.
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Now; suddenly a quantum shift; but its a shift moving upward… suddenly Ive walked into a higher frequency of people places and things; its leading me back to middle class people; kind of… Something is happening.
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Something wonderful is happening; a self actualization… Im moving upward closer to what Im looking for… Im getting closer…
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I don’t know what it means but it feels so good… I have to just keep trusting God.. And see what happens. Amen.
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by **OMNICELL** on Sat Aug 23, 2025 7:11 am

Because I told the group I was at; Ive never had a girlfriend. At this point; I may not be commanded by God to do so again. This may be all I needed to do to satisfy Gods completion of my stay at the 12 step groups… The tactical goal God had created for me; Is complete; I can now move on….. I have nothing more to tell them….

The goal now is to slowly get away from the 12 step groups.. I simply silently walk away and allow God to replace this social with other social situations…. Other groups… I don’t know what they will be; but they will be back out in the real world…
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That is the idea… Amen.
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I pray for Gods will…
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Am I ready for this; well; Almost; I guess; enough… Why not… Im so close; close enough…. I still have gaps but their small relatively; I get what Ive earned; Ive earned to be up close to the next level of direction and new pathways from God….
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I say goodbye to the people in those meetings and move on to the next directions and experiences of new pathways that lead to new life somewhere else.
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I was expected to tell this recent and present situation the truth; That I had never really ever had a girlfriend. Ive never had a girlfriend… I was in some kind of altered dementia. I was fooling myself on all fronts and all subjects. I had become dissociated from reality when very young and never came out of it.
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I have now graduated from these groups. I will not tell them… But God has completed me in those places.
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God has shown signs it is time to move on.
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The key now is to prepare. Meditation and an honest look of what I really want; writing new stories about this; that is the goal….
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I will pray deeply to God concerning these things… Amen.
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I have passed control by others to face; to break through….
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I will be in new situations and locations… Amen…. I believe…. But what is involved in the present is over…
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God will move me on…
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by **OMNICELL** on Sat Aug 23, 2025 4:57 am

Ive never had a girlfriend… .
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When I can say that openly and honestly in a group or with an individual openly in society; When I can see this as easy as saying; “ Im eating an orange” or “ Im riding a bike”… When I can say this that easily; God then has shown me I am approved… And God will start me out on the new journey toward an actual wife sent from God… Amen

by **OMNICELL** on Sat Aug 23, 2025 12:44 am

Moving forward….
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Next level is the practice of small levels of courage….
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Im working with Courage through intimate words expressed of confession at meetings….
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Its interesting; it seems that no one seems to know what Im doing; Im putting out vulnerability in front of others in order to practice courage. After a long time of this; I start gain significant confidence in this area; the area of consistent development.
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Meaning; Im getting better or deeper in my subject interrogation of self surrounded openly by others.
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The point is; I have the general concepts from the universe of what Im suppose to do; in order to move forward; and Im working on it.
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THE MEETINGS: THE ROOMS OF RECOVERY;
They are playing a significant part in my real confidence perspective God seeks for me; strengthening to meet my confidence problems as God would have me. The rooms play developmental; forging rolls of courageous mounted; each step forward building just a little more confidence and acceptance that courage got me their… got me to that gold nugget of confidence.
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For Confidence Is Fire born within the deep abyss of the Universe; it is the language of the mountains of Jupiter and every other mounted solar system with in the universe.
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courage steps build confidence. Confidence is the essence of man; Confidence is Man… Everything is Magic; there is no logic….
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Become a Knight; fight some dragons and gain confidence… Become a Knight and fight many dragons… And gain the process that gains confidence and thus the building of courage and confidence… Let this Gold of the Mans Universe; “ confidence”; Let it consume me and make me….
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Note; Im going to meetings in the present and talking about Intimacy and girlfriends relationships; courage and confidence… And that I will take orders from the Universe and go any direction the universe would like me to go in order to gain this confidence and find the wife God has for me…. .
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And such things Im heading toward.
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The problem has been. I can not tell a women I like her!; meaning the right one….
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Even if the old style Miss Universe a beauty of 10/10 quality; even if a women that looked like that; came to my door; and I opened it and she came in; even if she wanted me; I would just sit their paralyzed; I couldn’t tell her how I felt. And I coudnt tell her I had a problem telling her how I felt… so thus; she couldn’t help me. I cant tell her I like her; if not; Im just this hovering ghost like figure that has no purpose around her.
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CONFIDENCE:
Even if this women likes me and Ive attracted her; Ive got to be able to tell her how I feel or no go! She will never really know how I feel about her; not know if I like her… Its not her fault. She will turn and leave and that will be that…
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Confidence and support allows me to stand my ground with someone if; I tell them I like them; and they are not interested. I simply walk away come back to myself and my group and start over. Its all about the numbers in 2025.
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Ive attracted women before but could not tell them I liked them; thus I lost them…
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So; its not about attracting someone today; Its about the other side of things; its about building up my inner self so I can feel confidence that I can go out and find under Gods care; the right women God is sending me for relationships and once found; I can open up to them and tell the truth of how I feel about them… Thats all I want to practice.
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I might be able to muster up the courage to stand in front of a women; with the idea of telling her how I feel; But I have no confidence in telling her anything. And at some point in my life I may have been the kind of man that attracts a pretty women; but I cant stand before her and tell her anything because of a lack of confidence… And knowing I have no confidence in front of her; I wont bother to find myself in front of anyone.
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by **OMNICELL** on Tue Aug 19, 2025 6:45 pm

Introvert to extrovert…
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Confidence build is what this is about…
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Several different forms of confidence for the development of a mans life for him to function in society.
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So; I have a foundation; basic.. Meaning; Ive now got a foundation to work on. However; that means development of confidences of different forms and shapes and sizes. Men come from Lava; the Brutal clay created by Volcanoes deep deep within the earth… Fire Ice and Light… This is what creates the Caveman elements of is deeper self..
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The point is; Im very lucky….. I get another chance…
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The problems n challenges;
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First; I have a new set of new confidence clay; its going strait from inside to outside… from deeper inside to outside… solid; However; the clay is coming out… and consistent is its nature; my strength… I remember it being developed when young. So; Thus; its happening again… and it has happened but its small and weak… not strong.
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THE PROBLEM;
It may take have a life time to regain my confidence to do anything; any rejection, dejection… I may not be here that long.
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So; I have to just keep working with God…
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I do feel with this new vat of confidence; I can see myself standing with an opportunistic mind; standing in a crowd of people and learning how to walk up to people and introduce myself and get acquainted with them. Learning how to stand my ground and talk to them; and if Im rejected; it doesn’t get to me… I just walk away… or not even; I just walk to the next person and keep trying and gaining experience.
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The key to this; I feel connected to other sources; recovery and sponsor and God and such… I have a tether line; a line with human energy oxygen; spiritual oxygen to keep me going regardless; However; how practical this is in the present moment; we will see; I will be applying myself and thats what counts.
Im getting close because I can see it in my imagination as if it exists… Meaning the new confidence; and it does.
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The key is to have escape routs when interacting with a lot of people.
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The goal is; To get the extrovert part of me is to get me around new groups of people.
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Getting around new groups of people; means meeting new people; allowing introverted women who might be interested in me; Getting me near them for this to happen. However; Ill have to be extroverted to start and continue with the journey to get to those places where single women exist… the right ones.
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I need experience.
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Something is happening; a self actualization…

The next level experience

Ive never had a girlfriend…

Moving forward….

Introvert to extrovert…

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