THE WORK GRID;
Welcome to Level’d up Recovery
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Before this was actual therapy for psychological disability; Im talking about when I started the recovery in the 12 step groups; and this will be later…
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I made it past the last level in recovery… Ill call that Level 1. This includes all things spiritual psychological; dealing with resentments and expectation and emotions and feelings and tragedies.. This includes learning how to trust myself and the human race again at some levels.
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Before this was actual therapy for psychological disability;
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NOTE; The whole idea of the first part of recovery is to clear away everything that I can; moving the past out of my life as best as possible. And move into the next level of recovery…
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Clearing away the past
clearing away mental illness symptoms and problems; best I can
acceptance
Psych help and meds in the beginning and monetary help from the state.
Interacting with others…
Dealing with maturity issues
Goal setting
everything; dealing with God higher power
12 step groups; working the 12 steps with a sponsor… over n over n over; especially that 4th and 5th steps… 1000000000000 times if possible… For this reduces resentment and expectation that causes resentment; using these 4th steps.
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Success based thinking process is a later step in the first process of recovery for me.
from innovators like Napoleon Hills book; Think and grow rich… To BoB Proctor; Abraham Hicks and others; These online coaches for the laws of attraction; help to create Billionaires by showing new ways to think and grow rich. I believe theyre philosophies for getting rich have proven themselves; This is about Learning to program the Brain… and re program the brain to win; and to Think and grow rich and be successful.
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As for Level one recovery; to break it all down; the different categories;
This list goes on n on. Think of all the basics in life I would like to get… redevelop. In the recovery process; how one slowly becomes aware of the need for these life basics to be brought forward and dealt with and aligned and brought back into reality… Brought to life again… And this; This the First part of recovery; This is the First Level.
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The beginning of the Second level of recovery…
Once these areas of the first level are established under God in recovery; I began a trek to something new;
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A story example of the beginning of the Second Level in recovery;
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Think of one on a sailing vessel of the 16th century or 17 century….
One enters a ship from the dock; and then suddenly That boat leaves the port of Spain and heads out to sea; On board; one is told of possible great lands to the West months and months away! And thus; The trip begins.
The trip is long and treacherous. However; after months n months on sea; suddenly; One Day; a mate comes into ones sleeping quarters and say; “ We've hit land We've hit land”. And before One knows it; Theyve gathered all their belongings; and are headed down the ropy walkway to a port dock… and for the first time in months; with the sun shining; they get off the ship and take their first steps onto new land…
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After a few days of recuperating; Those staying on land at that port; they gather together and work out a new plan.
The boat might be going back to Spain; but it wont be taking many of the passengers; because for those passengers its a one way ride; They will be staying in this new land of theirs…
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The First level of recovery ends when these people enter land after getting of the boat and decide to create a plan and stay in this new land; this new country. Its a new level; a new start. So for this example preparing themselves for the journey; taking the journey on boat; landing on new land; and preparing a plan for staying on this new land represents the first level of recovery… Staying on the land and developing these new plans is an example of the next level up in recovery.
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Back to my Blog;
A new plan for a new level of recovery;
So; after working through the resentments of my past and with the help of God and Success based thinking processes and techniques studied from success books and coaches; I created under God and co created with God; I create a general set of Goals;
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Wife
Family
Money
House
Car
Talents
Hobbies
Education
occupation
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BACK TO THE STORY;
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The first part of recovery is like those taking a long boat trip on sea; its long and treacherous and it teaches the basics of life and recovery.
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And in this process; including; working through resentments; creating new goals; new thinking process that I can manage my life. Working with God and under Go; learning how to focus on my goal and Work with others. Doing these things; I establish my life on ground under God; with my 2 feet under me solidly.
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Clean house; My house; and work with others…
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MY IDEA OF THE SECOND LEVEL OF RECOVERY;
Im not sure how many people make it to the second level of recovery; the kind of recovery Im talking about…
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This next level;
When I thoroughly work with God and sponsor on resentments over n over n over; until I am past them and moving on; When this happens; Im taken into a kind of “maturation purgatory”. Im held for awhile in monk mode gathering my thoughts and myself and my goals and my life; and soon Ill re enter life as a new or reborn self; At this point; When Im much more “ Here” In reality; and My mind is squarely focused on my new goals working under God; a strange occurrence happens; a transformation; Im transferred from the first level me; a basic version to a working man version; Im walked through a kind of spiritual portal; quantum leap; into the next level of my recovery; Suddenly Im in a new situation; The working man recovery process.
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WORK GRID;
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Think of a giant Tennis court. Think of this giant concrete area made of 3 by 3 foot squares… almost like a power grid… However; this is something I can walk on…
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This is a flat area. Open; sparse…
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So; what is this new flat sparse work grid level of recovery; For me; this is an area of WORK…
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Ive been transformed from a person sitting in rooms around tables talking; getting my feelings out about the past and how to recover; Ive Graduated under God into a new level of recovery; a WORK area set up for the goals in the real world…
Now; I spend my time learning how to put hours of productivity together and participate in them… I learn how to work for what I want… I learn how to be part of my goals and help make them happen.
If I want relationships
If I want money
If I want to write a song and perform it
if I want to create a painting to put it on someones wall
They all have something in common; WoRK…
And their absence has something in common; No Work; no new relationships or paintings or songs or money or house or anything.
One could say; if I use the laws of attraction and work with the universe and attract the lottery win.. Well; some would say; Thats not work? Actually it is; Its more work then actually working at a job. TO plan to win the lottery takes exceptional focusing skills and a good mindset of focusing on what they want. This would take thousands of hours to pull off; to manifest.
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Back to the Blog;
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I now use Work as the ethic; the means; the recovery process to accomplish my desires and goals in my life… To accomplish life!
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Ive graduated from the first level
Ive graduated; Im now working on the beginning aspects of my goals…
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I will become an Action person; this means; I understand Under God; I have to become the kind of person I want to attract. So; I will have to be at the same frequency of the person and place and thing Im trying to attract.
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Ill have to take action to make that impression. It wont be free… Its allot of work; it will be under God; So God will teach me; and Ill work at WORKING for the things I want.
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IM LEARNING HOW TO WORK; THIS IS THE NEXT LEVEL OF RECOVERY!
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I cant say it any better then that… \
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An example with Video gaming;
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One of my Hobbies is Video gaming… I am a Video gamer…
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I have this game I like; Ive chosen this game and its hard. I believe Ill spend about 500 hours learning how to shoot the orgs on this island in this game. I have to learn how to shoot the different types of Orgs and demons and monsters; get them out da their; gone. For this game to work.
Each creature has its own strengths and weaknesses… And Ill not only learn how to fight each type of creature but Ill learn how the safest best method to hunt them down so I don’t get killed all the time. Is this easy; NO!
Its a hard game for me…
Ive been killed about 1500 times and Ill be getting killed about another 5000 times to go.
Here is the point; I don’t get to quit just because Im frustrated.
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Definition of not quitting from Wicka pedia…
you are in a situation where you feel like you have no choice but to continue, even if you want to stop or give up
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back to the game;
The problem is; I have to learn how to target practice these orgs correctly; and that takes training… it will take months n months; Its just the way it is… Just to get trained for the game. Could I walk away; well of course; but I cant. I cant walk way because I have to learn to stop walking away…
Its hard; and I like pleasure more then I like work. And that wont do here. It wont work…
IM IN A NEW SEASON;
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Im in a season where the recovery is aligned and assigned with WORK toward a goal or desire. This is the new recovery
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“Im in a season where the recovery is aligned and assigned with WORK toward a goal or desire. This is the new recovery “.
Im working with God to be transformed into a person who is fit for that desire; who is actively pursuing the desire ( who is learning how to pursue a desire; the work ethic under God and with Gods help). In addition I have to be someone who is up to speed and working on that desire or in its realm best I can; ACTIVE…
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So; as I have mentioned; that is the New Recovery; Where recovery is aligned and assigned with work toward a specific life goal or desire. This is the new recovery.
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I will still go to 12 step meetings; but the focus of what I talk about at meetings will be based on the achievements Im looking to develop; I will talk about the work ethic Im needing to accomplish concerning my desires and goals… Ill be talking about the limitations and maturity problems and lack of developed skills I need; Ill be talking about my short comings and character flaws that get in the way of my desired success.
Ill be talking about gaining my recovery desires; gain them through work…
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I know longer need to know why I cant function; With the work ethic; Ill finish my interests anyway.
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An example with Painting;
I no longer have to figure out why I cant paint that painting. Ive already discussed that to a remarkable degree in the 12 step rooms; and a fearless moral inventory on that subject to a satisfying conclusion.
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Thus; Im transported from sitting in 12 step groups talking about what I want in the future; Im transported to working on developing of those things in the real world; where; most of my talking concerning the everyday working problems getting myself to my goals.
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NOTE; The WORK GRID is a concept in my mind; in my imagination but it has many ties to reality.
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This new recovery Work GRID is to develop a wife, a family, a house. A car, talents, hobbies… education occupation; money…; Make these things alive…
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My new recovery process is hands on within the idea of work ethic; to get what I want…
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ART Work;
I know what it will take to create and finish Art work. It will take a work ethic… These concepts are still just as painful to intellectually work on. Ill still take these issues surrounding work ethic into the 12 step rooms and talk about them; but the difference in recovery is; Ill actually be working at them. And Ill be working at them and finishing those projects.
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The point of taking the information I gather when activity working on something; Im learning to work out the problems so I will be consistent and continuous at my work ethic concerning a thing.
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However; lets get something strait; I understand that Work is the answer for the problems surrounding these goals; that is the part of the over all problems for me; Not having any work ethic.
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Not sure if any of this is making any sense…
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FOR EXAMPLE;
I used to go to recovery rooms for years and talk about my dysfunction for creating Art; I could not touch or get near art work. I could not interact with any of it or do anything with it… This do to trauma.
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So; I went to therapy and 12 step groups and talked about it… After years of talking and exposing vulnerability for a very long time; I was able to bring art work closer to me. And I did until finally I could be spontaneous with pencils and art supplies and draw and create again. But; I could not really created anything that was finished; I could only dabble for a moment. I never felt safe actually creating an idea to completion.
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And thus; This indicates the First Part of my recovery; I started making Art; thats all I wanted.
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NOW; In the next level of my recovery; its time to put those art abilities to use and actually create a finished painting I can put on someones wall. And this will require a lengthy consistent work ethic.
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So; That means being focused and present; long hours of creating something good of a standard level of acceptable finished art. And this is not easy; I don’t have the skill for art. I don’t have any skills; I never learned any.
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I realized; I don’t have any skills for Art. I never learned any; nothing. I spent most of my time talking about how I could never create any art… and I spent the rest of the time talking about how I felt caused this problem; and the rest of the time working on solutions in the recovery rooms. And in all that time I actually couldn’t really apply myself to Art. I never really created any Art!
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I wanted to quit; but working with God; God gave me another approach to things; THE WORK ETHIC…
With a good work ethic; Ill learn skills because Im actively working on my goal.
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What does a work ethic look like for me concerning Art; Well; It looks like Long Hours…. Long hours of grind and detail work; honing in on getting that base drawing just perfect; finishing something in a professional manner; to put it on someones wall.
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THE WORK GRID;
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So; I will be in 12 step rooms screaming about my short comings in a work ethic; and the work I have to do and my disabilities and how they affect me and my immaturities and traumas; But this time It wont be about the resentments from my mother and father and how it affects my ability to function in society.
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Now; Its about all things dealing with hands on working for my desires. I will be trying or attempting to learn how to work at things in a consistent manner and to apply myself to my dreams; this means showing up; putting in long hours of work toward my dreams and facing the allotments that require courage I aint got… being face to face with my problems and solutions… And having God with me as I try to figure things out and not quit or give up… Because I just wont… Im not going to! I don’t want to! I want to get back up on my feet and work at something.
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Maturing n a work ethic;
So; we are talking about the ability to get involved in the work ethics to create what I want… The 12 step rooms will be used for my screaming sessions from the frustrations of being far far limited to the ability to perform in a work ethic situation and the answers to maturing in a work ethic situations.
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Altho the most important aspect of my recovery has to do with my parents who I never had; and how they affected me in my life… And the dysfunction from dealing with them…
Today; the goal is not to find out more what my mother did to me and how it affected my life; nor more about what my father did to me and how it affected my life; For I have done this already; put in years and years and years and years of solid recovery on these subjects to a point of mass saturation… I worked out what my mother and father did to me and how it affects me. Sure; I could keep working on it; but my focus has naturally changed under God.
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Now; I want to put in the long hours of work to accomplish my talents and to build new relationship; to have a Wife and A family; To make music and art successfully and writings; creative writing… To create at a competency level. And this will require work; lots of it; and long hours of it.
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So; my dysfunction putting out long hours for anything; this is what I will now be talking about in 12 step meetings; The work to acquire my goals; The work ethic…
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Ill be spending my time On a Work Grid working toward what I want…
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The first goal is simply the hours put into a project.
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I have the mind of a child who was broken who will not put out any energy for anyone. For he has been ripped to pieces to many times… And yet; this same child must put out that work… He must learn and learn to trust and trust myself and trust God and work with God; and learn to believe again….
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Its sad I wont have the original mother and father or house and life I did when I was young to do this with; Ill have to work with God on this; and ask God to be my parents or anyone else he wants to show up to play safe family role.
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The point is; Ill be working at things; and the goal is to learn how to put in the long hours for a thing… And their it is; that is the primary area for now for the
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WORK GRID;
To put in long hours to finish a creative project as is; just because I say I want to… no other reason… And I hve to learn how to do this. To stick to it… And be in charge of this; in charge of my own life and goals along with God running everything.
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A work Ethic is what I want… and developing it to finish my goals is my desire. That is the new me… The new level of recovery.
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