With much work with God and help… First Love; Uncovered.
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I have my first real view of who I was before First Love; I have a clear picture from God of this; who I was; who I actually am.. And I have a very clear picture of whom I was suppose to meet; it was not FIRST LOVE: FIRST LOVE was an impostor; sociopath psychopathic… criminal minded Anti social personality disorder. This person was not suppose to be their; in that position..
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I was suppose to be with an average nice girl; very introverted; nice girl who lived next door kind of thing.. Someone average. I can see her now in my imagination; She is a carbon copy of my frequency. My real frequency and the real me.
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With Gods help; I was able to see the real me with no family; just self with no one alone vulnerable and destroyed and thrown away; I was able to see myself before I met FIRST LOVE; The real me. God has allowed the layers to open up and be uncovered so I can see myself. And I am. And the person I was interested in is nothing like this False FIRST LOVE; NOTHING!
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This was a mistake; This FIRST LOVE…
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I needed to get out of that immediately and get corrected back into alignment with God and self. Im not sure where this snake came from.
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So; Im seeing myself; my identity; my true identity. Im seeing my identity; my real self. And what and who I was suppose to attract before I ever met this Mistaken sociopath who lied to me and tried to fool me. This was just another scumbag criminal evil minded predator.
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So; when I look back and see myself raw and open and innocently self; I see someone with no one; and that is truly horrendous; but I had been completely thrown away…
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So; there is a person I was suppose to meet; I was suppose to meet someone; That part wasnt wrong. It was right! I was suppose to meet an unassuming average girl who lived next door kind of person who was unknown by others; someone extremely introverted… Just an average person; average looks; regular person… from a house a family. This person would have been just like me… Just unassuming: Kind of a quite house person no one knew anything about.
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But whats most important is; Im telling you a narrative of what was suppose to happen but its a story about me and someone I was supposed to meet BEFORE this other story of FIRST LOVE: And that being open now is a miracle from God. Really!! a true miracle. An uncovering…
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Its like an Archaeologist finding a city 30 feet below a city at sea level; someone no one would have known about.
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And Now that I know about this; This is making FIRST LOVE look more n more suspect and a giant mistake…
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This means Im finding myself… And those at my frequency within my imagination; they are not turning out anything like the people I was meeting later in my life.
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Ive been around the wrong people; the wrong crowd.
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Now I have to work with God on all of this. And on the frequencies of who I really am and who I really am and the frequencies of those I attract at my frequency level… these humble? Quite people no one knows…. Introverts like me. Sensitive quite…
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Ill work with God on all of this and keep building on it.