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Im starting over; Literally; Im already in; Im there; Im here… Now what. Im half way like any new child into the world; Im in shock… Im just kind of here. Now what! What do I do now! Where am I… Im new!
Im here as is. I have God and the success based work I do to move forward with faith in success based thinking. SO far; it appears to be strengthening my resolve and belief in success based goals; Goals backed by an education or science behind the goal process. And I believe in it. I have GOd...
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Here I am. I have nothing; I have everything… ? I have an idea....
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Here I am….
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Its a place where I want to make great strides. This is that area of self actualization and competence I am combining under God; this dance bringing about the interactions of real change.
If Ive been working on gaining settlement in Desires of the past; This is the time period of such things…
If ive been working on Dating women again; this will be the time period… If I want a house; this will be a time period or if I want a drum room; This will be the time period for significant gains; Gains that take me over the starting line into the unknown into no mans land beyond no-mans land onto new lands and society where Foundations are built in reality and can be shown in reality; The building of something real on each Goal point will be proven… This is the time period of real things… to participate in reality. For this to happen; I have to become a society man within reality. I have to become suave.
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If I want more money; this will be the time I prove it through work or some other means working with God.
This will be a place or time of owning a car
this will be a time of a new place to live associated with the ability to drum; meaning a drum room or a house; Something…
Is this a time period of wife family children. I don’t know or; a real house; large house; I don’t know.
Or complete economic answers to my desires; I don’t know…
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THe Football Game;
But this is the time period of not just planning for the football game; but This time; it will be time to put the team together and get out on the football field with other teams and play the game… Thats where Im at.
Stressful is a good word for it; but with gaining a foothold in the realities of my desires/goals.
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This means; a real development of a car; a house; or drum room; girlfriend… Money… It is now. How long is this season; it depends on how long it takes for these things to be established. The establishment of these goals determines how long this season lasts. What this means; It means working at things in the real world until they are completed. How long is a war? Its the same thing; its real; Im fighting for what I want and its real establishment foothold into realities...
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This has to do with responsibility. And working with others… and working mainly with God and sponsors...
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NOTE; Dealing with Rejection and failure...
Dealing with rejection and failure;
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Rejection and failure will be all over this thing… I mean; all over it; bloody with different forms of defeat, setbacks of all kinds; immaturities, running out of everything… rejections; betrayals…
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All kinds of loneliness until I learn properly how to hit those goals; how to find the proper land for them and start the realistic building process.
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Im very much like the homestedd’r of the 1800’s in my country who crosses the middle of my country to the other side looking for something better; starting my own ranch; building my own empire or house or family… Ill be building my own family this time…
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And Im starting from nothing but a dream or idea and half baked broken disabled personality and mind… I have God and a good idea and a support group.
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Im working with Gods ideas… and with Gods help and ideas; I make gains into reality again within life; Something that has not been seen since childhood…
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This time; with Gods help; and support; Ill be putting forth the effort to create the visions that turn into realities of each of my goals.
Im looking for the life I had as a child; but as a child; someone else bought everything; the house the car the cake; the fake relatives; the nighborhoods… the false Grandparents… The false cousins and aunts n uncles that never really existed as proper support. These were either monsters or murderers or people who hated me the day I was born and never wanted to meet me or ever have me on their property. I was fooled my whole life; and I was alone my whole life…
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Hmm. I become more responsible in this stage. Im looking to develop inroads into society; adult structures from adult thinking and goals into society. Things like car house Wife family; money and so on. That kind of thing.
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Do I know HOW this is going to happen; NO!
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For now; My goal is to have no doubts and learn to completely believe; What ever it takes… I shall have what I ask... ANd Ill take no less...
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In fact working through this first Pathway of belief with no doubts of my success and desires; That is the first goal.
The Horse before the cart!
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The first thing needed; I must pray on my knees and have new stories of what I want as if I have them; with meditation; guided meditation; what ever it takes; thus believing all these things can become a reality. Its that “ Belief” with no doubts; That will be the first goal and Ive been working on this for a while now. I am showing signs of getting stronger.
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My inner self; consciousness mind nervous system soul; feelings; I am feeling Im wealthy; and Im feeling Im wealthy enough for a house, car, Wife… Im feeling it; it has grown into me. However, their is no proof I can give you the reader of such things. So; within this new process and season of my life; it is a time now; of proving it! from thoughts to things...
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At this point; where do I go from here. Well; nothing in the real world has show up yet; but that is because I am not at the starting line for these things yet; But Im much closer; Im actually at the beginning of the beginning of the process in the real world for these things. But Im starting out as a new being created from a new garden in the present; I have no past before this!
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The key concept Im bringing up is; “ Its now in reality”….. Im no longer protected or hiding in dissociation completely; on these subjects; That in itself cause great pain shock, stress fear; terror; uncomfortable-ness.
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Its all a kind of unknown; its a kind of plan before the battle. Im moving into this battle. My army is now slowly moving into this battle. Slowly; How well do I need to know the terrain or the enemy of what Im up against. Ill learn while Im in it; I have no cognitive intelligence in this area; Ive never been in this area while Im driving my own ship.
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God is my brain my insight and my scout within the new territory Im interested in conquering.
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I may get blown out of the water to start with; completely lost and disfranchised. I don’t know. But I am going from thought to reality; No in between.
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Im in reality… Im attempting to take long term goals and establish a beach head for them in reality… taking an idea within fantasy-land and bringing it into reality. As is; where Im at… In reality; life on lifes terms.. Acceptance...
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God does not want me enabled or spoiled...
Im on my own. And its kind of where God wants me; For God wants me to learn how to work with and trust God for what I want… Ill learn to trust God more then I trust the next door neighbor…
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WHen the student is ready; the teacher appears; its my responsability to become that student that is completely ready for God to be my full teacher where he is in 100% control. and I am nothing... meaning; I have no power. I am at Gods mercy.
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This is not easy; It has to start somewhere. And Ive been preparing the ground for such things…
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Its starts with prayer… IT starts Right Now!
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How long will it take; In this case; As long as it takes for this season to be completed. 1 year; 10 years; I dont know... I must work until I can show facts on paper and on the ground. Today; plans for a battle ship are not enough; I must also show the finished product; the battleship; and such is of this time period... This season; a season of self actualization...
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My Goal is to Think and Grow Rich!
So it begins. Amen..