July 2025
June 2025
Lets talk about co dependency.
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One of my biggest issues I could not get over; the loss of a girl I loved when young; The universe is slowly unveiling process to allow me to see the truth; and the truth sets me free.
Altho it hurts.
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Lately; a simple message has been given to me by the universe; something so simple I never saw it for all these years.
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Question from the universe; “ Brian”; If this girl loved you or cared about you; would she care if you never married because of her? In other words; If she betrayed me by leading me on after I loved her or feel in love with her and because I was so displaced by being traumatized by being dumped; even tho I thought she liked me; Does this sound like someone that would want to see me married and happy with someone. How would this person feel if they were responsible for I never getting married because of damage to my personality sprit soul…. How would she feel.
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In my opinion; this person did not care if I ever got married; ever had a life or if she ruined my life or ability to marry someone else.
Im not sure if Im making my point.
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A sadistic person that purposely tried to destroy me by leading me on and changing her mind; This is no friend of mine; in addition; this is not someone that cares about or what happens to me or my future. This person not only doesnt care if Im dead; this person would prefer it and sees it and me as a joke.
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This person is sadistic and not safe to associate with.
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If this person is sadistic and not safe to associate with; and they dont care if they ever see me again. I mean nothing to them. They do not care if God brought us together. If they tried to ruin me by pulling the rug out on me; one might say; They certainly dont care if i marry anyone ever again. This means they dont care about me…. or what happens to me…. This means they never did. In fact; they would love to see me dead; thats how much they care about me; nothing. This means they have no value for someone like me; They see no qualities. They see no quality.
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Im trying to bring out a point of extreme importance. The more I define this person; the more its obvious this was never my friend. They dont have the capacity for associating with humans. They are not safe. They are sadistic
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If they dont care that Im in their life or if I marry them; The means they dont care if I ever get married…. iS this someone I want within 1000 miles of me; NO! certainly not; is this a friend of mine. No!
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The point Im trying to make is; They are my enemy and were my enemy before I met them. They hurt me and dont care and never cared in the first place. They dont care if i have a good life… Any people I associate with; i want to care that I have a good life. I want to be around only those people that care about me and my future. \
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This person did not care about me or my future; thus; “ What was I thinking”.
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This was not a friend of mine; some how I become trauma bonded to this person I think. Some how I continued to hope and dream about her and that I was so in love with her. But the fact is; she is nothing like what I saw in my head.
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In order to be set free; the universe has to show me only one thing; does she care if Im dead or alive; if someone cared about me; they would care if I was ever married or had a relationship; it would matter to them. They would not want to see me alone and deprived of human rights or existence or the things that make a human being happy; they would not; they would feel something.. They would feel something is wrong.
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These monsters dont feel anything; They care about destroying anything they can find that is weak…. They will trample over anything that is valuable; rip it to pieces…. They are pigs n swine; thats all they are.
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I found myself going to the wrong house holds and opening up my personal stuff and being fooled completely. I was manipulated 100 percent by hustlers.
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Im mad that I got taken. I had no idea I was being taken; didnt even know it was an act. But in the end; I ask myself a question; These takers were faking and taking; thats all it was; criminal brains thugs; women or men… In this case women; we are talking about romantic things here.
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But their was no real romance; they saw this as an opportunity to take advantage of an innocent person; naive with no defenses up. I made a big mistake.
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I got charmed 100%; I didnt even know who or what I was dealing with…. The charm game took over quickly and that was that. I was completely hypnotized and out of my mind but never knew it; I had been played the moment I opened the door; but never knew it.
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In the end God has shown me; They were killers; they were trying to destroy the very fabric of life. of my life. They wanted to destroy me; I was a stranger.
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The savings grace of God is; After this person dumped me; Was I being dumped by someone that like me; I assumed I was. God has revolved otherwise; she never liked me; not even once for a moment. In fact; if we look to the end of life; one will see she had nothing but distain and contempt for me; thought she was better then me from the beginning; spitting in my face…. it was an act of hatred.
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She was out to destroy human beings; to the end; murderer…. she was out to murderer me. And she tried. Thank God God opened my eyes; This person did not care about my basic interests in life; did not care if I ever got married or had a family or happiness. Did not care if she damaged me completely to the point of not being able to have relationships ever again; did not care if I was so damaged I would never find love again or be married again; did not want the best for me in this life; but instead for me to be snuffed out and destroyed,
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Im not sure if Im saying any of this right; I should be able to say this in 2 words.. something likke. “ she cant be trusted”. Something simple.. Something that indicates this is a thug; Red flag; get out now; This is not what you think! Run….
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I was in the house of the damned and the minute I walked in I was getting robbed; and thats all I was getting.
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Now; I can let go of this knowing this was a monster who was trying to kill me me…. Something like that.
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So; what Im sharing is; the intent of this person was to murder me…. they were murderers and nothing else. Yes; their ya go; something like this. Putting on an act. I was the sucker and they were the make believe fantasy…. I never saw it. Now I know.
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God revealed to me the intent; and the only creatures that can have an horrible intent for my life experience are people who hate me with pure deep hatred and contempt and I need to run out of that place; I got suckered in…. and shredded. and thrown out…. thats all that happened; forget the big fancy stories; I was taken and thats that.
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So again; the discovery was asking a simple question; was this person a decent human being; No! This was not a human being at all. This was not something who wanted the best for me and the best life story or even life; they wanted death; death for me and wanted to create death for me… I was being taken down a river on a false boat ride; hook line and sinker…. Totally manipulated. But thats not it; it is but its the universe making a simple statement of wisdom stand out; did they have my best interests at heart? no! no more then a drug dealer cares about the people they sell drugs to; they are not actually taking care of someone; they are making money off them…. they are using them.
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And thats what happened to me; I was being used. I never knew; it was never safe and I never knew.
Thank God for the universe helping me out to get this straitened out; but its not over yet… but it is.
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