First love and why it was important;
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I started to believe in myself… and because of it; I was led to someone; someone special; and I was to believe in her.. that was my job… This was not easy; but it was for me…
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This was pure independent self actualization; and it came from God…
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God did not stop this. I did not have support and I got side lined; and could not find my way back. I was crushed; I was crushed by the heavy weight of what I was trying to accomplish. God sent me..
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I got pulled away; or swept away… I went only half way… I did not expect that to happen. I did not know God like I know God now… I did; but I didn’t…
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I quit or gave up; I was not suppose to… Something happened and I did not follow through; I crumbled. So God brought me back home to him…
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I could never live with what I did to the women I loved. I left her… but I loved her…
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Im still wrestling with God on this; but I am with God!
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I am back…