Im tired and beat up from the street up...
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I was writing some morbid stuff; I decided to change directions.. I got some morbidity out and expressed it but I dont want to color my spiritual position into the black.
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Ive decided to keep it up-beat. Or to stay up -beat. My goals continue.. I continue to work with God.. I will keep working with God and waiting on God and learn how to believe Im getting the goals Im setting out for..
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I guess what goes with allot of spiritual work is not just understanding and accepting the past; its also having some discipline and faith with God on the present and future. Im very glad concerning the relief Im feeling from the past. I feel much safer and much more in the safety of the present... THe lies of the past are not so important to my present reality. Ive worked enough with the past; and worked through the past to a point I dont need it.. I do not need the past... And that is the best thing may have ever said...
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I DONT NEED THE PAST! I just dont!
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All of my work is about the future and the present... And thats where Im feeling the overwhelming intimidation of things... And Ive decided to stay with a good attitude about things; at least a solid positive attitude concerning the present and future. How much I work to believe Ill get what I want; That is the key; the more work; the better shot at believing. And my focus is on learning how to believe... And their it is! That word "BELIEVE" hinges on everything! And thats where my work is... Thats where the work is!@