Love; To Love everything; To have Jesus back as my focus and love; to love everything. When that love grows enough and takes over; Then Im ready to love another; and they will show up; And that will be my girlfriend; I assume. Im not sure if she will be the first or the 5th. I may start with one to start with. Its up to God; I have to learn to love.
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This time; I tell them completely who I am and I tell them how I feel and make them my girlfriend and go from there and talk to them about who I am and what I want this time…
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Sexual abuse; This is in the way; so is the perpetrator. However; the way things are going; God will conquer this. God will conquer this. God will conquer this… God will conquer this.
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But its not done yet. And it must; I must become complete… So; I wait and work with God and earn this by getting on my knees to God… over n over n over…
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CAR; NO!
Not until God supplies the support network for it. I thought about it but God was not on my side with it. So NO!
I wait and keep working with God…
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OK God…
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I know women that are attractive and appear something to desire; but they have already destroyed any other interaction with them. They are using their looks against me. They are not my friends; they are weapons they are using against me; to destroy my desires. They are playing me; No problem; I must learn abundance and work with God on this.
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It is my inner being I listen to and my inner being does not want me with any of these women. They are dangerous and satanic. I will not do anything against my higher power and inner being…
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So; ill be working with my inner being and higher power to learn how to love. Love is the key. God will build my ability to love everything and everyone. Its already happening.
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So; love is the number one thing. I silently and quietly build under God. Love is powerful. Kindness ; Random acts of kindness; Million ways… and that is what Im quietly practicing. Love is powerful and this bring experiences and that brings and builds confidence. And confidence in different frequencies and colors and shades and forms is the essence of life; is the success of life!