July 2025
June 2025
I have to start over in 2025.
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Ive started over with hidden kindness in 2025. Im learning how to go out into society and secretly do kind things for others without them knowing it. I really like it. And I want to do more of it. I start out with simple things. I draw a smiling face in the dirt on a trail; I take a rock and put it on the side of the road and have it represent a friend I pray for. I pick a flower and put it on a grave… and pray..
I secretly sweep a small part of a sidewalk no one would know about; cleaning it off for the one who lives there… No one would even notice; But I know; its an act of kindness. Maybe I take an apple plucked from a tree; and put it down next to a bush on a corner of a street with the idea that a poor person might come by and eat it if they were hungry. And by doing so; I show caring love and respect to God and what God created. Im acting as an Angel for God on earth.
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These are examples of what its like to start out simple and at the beginning of learning how to be kind to the earth.
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RELATIONSHIPS;
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How do I start out practicing relationships coming into 2025. Where do I start. Im just practicing bringing myself from the past into 2025; where would I start from. Its all about grief. What would I be doing. Where would I start.
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What simple starting things can I do… to build a presence one movement at a time; one simple thing; simple movement; gesture; silent practicing gesture at a time in 2025.
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Ive been shyly; simply purposefully saying hello to people at specific and random times in 2025. However; This is even 2 much for me as a starting point for bringing the beginning elements of relationships into 2025.
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How do I start out. Maybe do small things for women; Kind things; I mean; really basic things; just simply kind gestures. Something like that in the vain of direction of women in 2025; something that breaks the ice; just the most simplest of things in 2025; Or even simpler; much simpler things in the vain of direction of relationships; things not associated with people. Maybe with animals and plants or imaginary things. Ill talk to God about it. I may have to start with child level things from my childhood and rework my childhood.. one small gesture at a time; slowly facing the losses and horror of that time period where I was melted down and destroyed and lost all… God help me… God is helping me…
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God help me! I can see it; starting out in my childhood… Ill do childhood stuff; OK; Ill have to talk to God; I have no idea; its been a long long while since I was a child.
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OK; Ill start at young young young childhood. And work with God on the most simple things to get started with; simple interactions; maybe with plants or bugs or blades of grass; or water; just simple starting points of connection and more. Sound; hitting on things making sounds. I don’t know yet. God will help me and let me know; Amen. Its a starting place; an idea. I get it; the starting out before I start out on a thing; the pre development of a development years. Developing the basic abilities that would go into the overall processes for developing development.
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Ill just start out with on simple unassuming gesture at a time. I guess; I talk to God about it; Amen.
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SO; I talked about all of this at meetings..
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I am slowly getting better socially; its just starting; Im slowly bringing in the sunlight of the spirit of God through me and my nervous system that is dissociated from reality.
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The goal is to have the sunlight of God get so developed and strong that it takes over as my identity and how and what I think about; so; all thoughts are pushed or molded into the stream of light of Gods pathways.. Energy rivers and quantum fields.
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The goal is to set forth on desires and goals within my vortex; That I see them recognize them; and match their frequencies in the real world… I do this many ways; One way now; random acts of kindness everyday. Ill do 5 in the morning; and for now; the rest of the day is up for grabs; meaning; Ill create random acts of kindness when I see and feel it during the day. My Goal is to get obsessed about it; and do it all day long; looking for ways I can create random acts of kindness outside. Its very empowering.
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Write stories as if what I want is already their with all feeling and detail.
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#1; meditation… Meditation works on me; Aligns me more n more with Higher power…
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And I use the prayers from the AA big book; about 12 of them…
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As for soulmate wife and children; I have to imagine all day long they are with me; in front of me next to me and Im squeezing them tight within me and I see it and feel it and feel their energy as they are here; represented of that energy…
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I also imagine I have a wedding ring on…
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And Ill do other things; imagining Im playing with them in the front lawn of our house and being with them in the house and backyard; to the point; that it becomes real to me. And so I continue down this area… this concept of creating an altered reality that begins to become real; and then I do the work to match its frequency and uncover it… Amen
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