Signs are showing the present areas Im involved in or have been; Im sailing through and possibly going beyond the boarder line of this present condition situation and perimeter.
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When I grow out of my present situation; people show up from the past; usually people of stress I did not like or get along with; and its possible; or women who liked me and wouldnt change so I never really started with them. Never got close.
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I just got innocently and authentically presented as a married man with a wife and children and house and car; 100% by someone; As if I was a normal married man under the stress of having a family and house and car and kids and family; It was from God; it slammed me like a tsunami.
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I really felt it when that Gent said that to me and the group. He said it in front of the group; Im not sure he even knew what he was doing… I don’t think he did; it was strait from the universe and I felt it; I felt the responsibility I would be under; the stress.. I really felt it; like I was married and has responsibility. It also had a feeling of being connected to my childhood; that being married is where I was suppose to be; or have been…
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SO; here I am.. Its slowly materializing.
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Today at the big store; more people showing up from the past; right in front of me… When I was and have been thinking and working on visualizing a wife and children. Suddenly out of know where; women from the past are showing up around me.. Fair enough; I get it; its the universe sending clues.
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Now; as I get stronger; and Ill have to keep working on it; Ive got allot of growing up to do in a specific area where there is nothing but a hallow non development; its a place I was thrown away… and now working God; Im slowly waking up to it and finding myself closer and closer to walking through that time portal to a new life… its closer; all of this. And it hurts really bad… all of this.
Well; Im moving toward participating in a areas. And Im growing through it and into it!.. \
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Im having to wake up where Im in massive pain from being thrown away and exposed to horror with no help; no one on my side; no way out; nothing; God is making me relive it; go through it at-least to come out on the other side. Amen
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Im simply going through all of this; I don’t know where its going to end up…
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