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My Goals;
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Goals are turning into; within; a pipe line; in similar direction; tethered together…
Goals are showing signs of getting stronger; stronger; bunched together heading down the same track; in the same realm going from my imagination into No Mans land; out for No mans like into of present reality. Like a Pipe line of oil being transported; flowing from one state to another.
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This means its been developing in my imagination. Goals have been struggling slowly appearing through much work in my imagination. However; Now; they are turning into real desires within reality. This; meaning, from fantasy realm to reality. This means Im getting strengthened in reality. This is important because the goals Im interested in are not in lolly lolly land; Disney land or The Fugi channel of puppets; or dark purple Unicorn land; Because my goals or being thrown out in an imagination and manifested way; there is a theory behind them; a planning strategy on how to think and grow rich; in an imaginative reality.
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Goals; Suddenly they seem so much more strong. They seem more unified. And the desires for my goals are strengthened.
In fact; I could say; The “ Real Desires”; The real inner form or structure of a desire; the real desire themselves have appeared; have appeared in reality. But not quite; they are being protected; they are not in reality yet; they are right outside reality houz’d in a special place; a spiritual vortex where they can develop.
Think of a Car in an underground garage; where its been worked on in a safe place; engine overhaul. When the engine is ready to go; the car will be for the outside world…
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In my 20’s yearly 20’s and middle 20’s; Well; something; I was living with Grandma and could not function; She paid for everything. I learned nothing; had no future; no interest in a future; no plans; My mind was hurt; damaged and I could not function… I was helpless… I needed to be in a nut house…
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So; I was far gone and learned nothing; I had no one; nothing. No one cared about me; nothing.
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So; here I am now after years and years and years of work; and an unuasual intersect is occuring; The concept of Desires; it has strengthened; almost like leveling up in a video game to a point of much more powerful; confidence and capable.. they are super charged; these Desires and they are all running down the same track together… and the end result looks or visualizes like a unison of goals all appearing and manifestation in the same back yard; and the backyard is a manifestation.
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In addition to that or this; is the change in Wife perspective; Now; its much clearer of who I want as a wife; Someone who is inline with my goals. And some one sent from God; and someone who is a helper from God for the development of my goals… who wants to help; who loves me so much or adores me so much; They want to help me; and help me develop… God sent…
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And this frequency of what Im looking for is coming from God; God is running everything; and running the show; Im simply tapping into it to allow God to show me what is going on; and Im getting it; and it reminds me of when I was a child and how I saw things innocently or was excited by things innocently; the future possibilities for my life.
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This state Im in; Im becoming; secretly is the most of what I could have ever asked the universe for. Im becoming someone and somewhat of a hungry go get’r for my future; with all spirit and confidence to do so; to believe in my direction; Nothing could be better then this.
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However; Im a damaged person; and this weighs upon me; and Im an immature person and this weights upon me; but in the case of maturity; To believe I can mature and develop into my goals; its happening right now; so Im believing Ill change; because Im already changing in that direction; Ive been changing in that direction.
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In fact; The part of me that is in the way of my development; God is helping and reassuring for safety reasons; that Ill be OK; Its OK to go in this direction and experiment.
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Im believing harder core in this new direction… Im still having a problem between living in a protected dissociative state vs reality; and how it fragments my abilities to have a clue what kind of realm of time and space Im living in. Part of me is in the 1960’s; but of me is in the 1980’s and part of me is here; damaged confused and more in the twilight of my unconscious senses then here…
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So; Im trying to make a point…
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The first point is; Ive moved into another stronger form; my Desires/goals; to be manifested; and this inner strength direction fortification from God; This new and enhanced version of my goals strengthening; This new level; This new fortification of the pipe line of my future; This did catch me off guard; its something I wasnt thinking of… However; Im understanding of it; and I did think of it first or it wouldnt be hear; I just was nothing thinking about it when it happened… This new strengthening and confidence of this thing that helps me Believe.
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Its all still in the imaginative stage; not in the real stage.
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WHAT IS ACTUALLY BEING MANIFESTED? It is not my only my dreams that are being manifested; What is really being manifested here?; I AM!
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IM GETTING MANIFESTED… Im becoming the super hero needed to take on the dream job. I asked for the dream job. Now; I have to become the dream worker… God will and is doing both.
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However; Nothing in reality accept glimpses has happened yet. All that has happened is a strengthening of my directions and goals and confidence surrounding them. And yet the confidence and belief is still in a dream state; its in the subconscious; the imaginative state; its not in reality…
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If I wanted a car; and I have a much better idea of what I want now and I have become a much more viable person to participate in this process of help out the manifestation process for this car; Yes; this is good; great.
But here is the reality im reporting on right now; Its not here yet. It may be here in my imagination and starting to appear in my nervous system and soul; However; out in front of me right now this second; it has not appeared to me in the real world.
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Im not in the real world with any of this yet; However; Im much more in the real world myself then before; but that has to manifest as well. Both The car and the new me must be manifested into the real world; More…
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SO; My imagination and nervous system and spiritual world are growing; But nothing in the real world; for this is incubating in my imagination… Its not born yet… Its in the idea stage.
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However; signs are showing up around me in the outside world; Signs that reflect what is going on in my imagination.
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For example; I might see a car; and that car suddenly triggers me; it triggers me because its reflective of the same or similar view of a car being born in my imagination or one that has already been born in my imagination…
But that new beginning creature in my imagination; that is forming; This is forming in the womb of heaven and is not birthed yet unto the world. My interest is making it happen; but the mechanics come from God.
So; What I have to believe; hang in there long enough for it to happen into the real world… There it is…
So; a gap resides between what Im imagining and having it appear as a new manifestation onto the world.
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And the growth is showing up in my imagination as a much tougher stronger cohesive process of confidence from beginning to end; The process has been beefed up… This is coming from God and it is a most wondrous thing to watch a thing develop before it is born unto the world. Its like a camera view into my wife's stomach so I can watch my own child being born… And that is what is happening in my imagination; its like a womb and I get to see the view of it; viewing the whole process and being aware of it… But its not out yet. .
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I work with God to believe I can become that kind of confident person ready for these things… That means believing God.. That it will happen… However; God is giving me real world cues; reflective information; Im actually seeing things in the real world that are copies of what Im wanting to manifest in my imagination; they are meeting up; that which is in the real world and that which is in my imaginative world…
This is helping me to have no doubts that at some point these to forces will meet together with me and a new creation will occur…
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A WIFE:
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So; a new meaning has occurred for a Wife;
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A wife now under God has a much more practical solution or reality; Who is she; her identity; Her identity is to be inline with my goals.. .Thats what she is; thats how I know her…
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NOTE: And at a personal level; I know what this wife must be like or will be like vs what she will not be like.
She will be completely on my side of things; helping me… She is sent by God but she is already with God… She is a compliment of my visions and ideas and dreams; she is parallel to me. She is a reflective component of what could be and will be manifested. She is literally a helper sent from God…. She is created to help; for that purpose sent from God; Im not suggesting she doesn’t have her own life and dreams but her calling and purpose to help me is established and she naturally wants to help me and be inline with me.
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Im seeing this manifestation I can feel it; However; I don’t see it yet in the real world.
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So; all of this is still in the developing stage… and to be honest; I cant say it any other way then its in my imagination still.
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I think this whole experience right now; in thought; This whole experience is to teach me to hang on until I begin to see the ideas in my imagination and the new me meet out in the real world through becoming materialized… We will see.
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Right now; my mind is going from Poverty based victim to imaginatur…. A productive creation of the imagination where ideas are generated into reality that walk around; wear clothing and breath. That is the idea.
And I must work with God until this idea is proven. For I will not give it credit nor God until it is… .
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God does not get credit with anyone; with me on planet earth unless he shows the goods; No GO!
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The goods must show up first… Under all circumstances… Before I give credit to God for anything new brought to me out into the real world. It must be here first; then Ill report on it.
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Until then. I continue to work with this experimentational idea…
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NOTE: I can see it tho; its getting stronger; This idea of a thing manifesting into the real world; where Both I and the thing undergo changes to meet each other in the outside world; because; I would have to become a different stronger more independently nature’d person to meet this thing I want in the outside world.
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Im really feeling where this is going.
This whole thing is headed to strengthen the processes that take an idea and birth it into reality; Lets just say the birthing canal is being strengthened… ( Note; this is not the way I like to talk). Talking about this stuff kind of grosses me out; freaks me out; its a feminine way. And I don’t like it or like talking about it; Im not comfortable with it; it seems weak to me; altho acceptable; its of the weaker softer sex; But the words brought into the world; they make more sense… For; the idea is to see this idea born into the world… Something like that…
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For something to be born into the world; something has to be. I mean; a real thing created in the center of God. So; Thats what Im looking to prove; that its from God; all of this; it certainly feels that way. Its like when I was a kid… Same thing… to feel this way when I was interested in developing something…
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Now; to pray at the deepest levels to God and keep this up; to get completely under God; for God is All Power; I have non and Im going to God to ask for that power to help me manifest things into my life.
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