July 2025
June 2025
As I work with God and groups concerning my first love; working within the recovery process to seek the truth; with the universe guiding me; because I asked the universe to guide me and for help concerning these matters.. The universe has sent me to recovery meetings of all sorts...
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So; What is the universe teaching me?
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What was the problem with my first love? She was a ScumBag....
My first loves father was a Scumbag
my first loves brother was a scumbag
my first loves mother was a scumbag...
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The whole family were nothing but scumbags... A kind of white collar scumbag...
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Because these people were white collar people; I was fooled; I did not recognize the bad behavior as being a pathological habitual behavior situation. In a real sense; this was a family of brutal criminals; sociopathic; sadistic in nature.. They were scumbags; lowlifes...
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I was judging on potential and not behavior.
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When; after working with the universe; I was able to judge these people on their behavior and not their potential; and I stopped being a victim; I was able to recover just enough to get my eyes open to what was actually happening around me; I began to see behavior of criminals toward other people; all other people; anti social behavioral patterns... all over the place.
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IM GOING TO SAVE THE GIRL: Well; it was a nice thought; Im going to save the girl from the bad family.....
Unfortunately; the medieval childs story book fantasy is not going to work here... The Girl in this never said she had a problem. She never claimed she needed to be saved... She never claimed anything was wrong; Thats because she was a scumbag...
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She was a scumbag like her father and mother and brother.. THey were all the same... And these people are not people to associate with; they are dangerous... all of them...
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Given the chance; any one of them would rip someone off if they were trusted or run someone over in many different forms...unethical... all of them; scumbags...
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When I stop looking at their potential and look at them from the point of view of the law or judicial system; They are unsafe monsters for no one to associate with...
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Rudging on their behavior not their potential. Sociopaths appear to have all kinds of human potential; its a joke; and a lie; They are conning people... They are criminal con artists and that's all... no concious.
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THe first love I had; this person is no different then the family she came from; scumbags... THese are unsafe people... I would never recommend anyone associate with.
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Making the transition from romantic limerence to reality viewing... This was and is not easy... it requires a group of people and a deep trust in a higher power... my higher power guiding me all along...
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ITs hard; all of this; and confusing.. I did not have the answer nor could stand seeing the real answer...
Im still working on it; got about 50% to go to have these memories split into and I walk through the middle of them.... and come back to myself.
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Nothing made any sense trying to figure any of this out.
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What happened here is not uncommon... IT happens; a non suspecting person like myself finds myself in the house of bad guys and I get taken... thats all that happened... The cure is to never do business with them again; they are all the same; everyone of them in the house hold...
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I did not know the girl was the same as everyone in the household; she may have been the worse one...
How could I have not known... I think; no one knows. especially when someone is innocent and simply walks up to interact with others... bad things happen to good people in this world...
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I had no idea I was being taken nor how hard.... These people were the equivalent of murder'rs extortionists and rapists... In their own closed white collar world...
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Why would I want to join anyone like this or even need to; completely anti social.... criminal... and worse...
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When I can see the persons behavior and step back and just judge the behavior; I begin to see a pattern... and Im shocked by what I see... and a clear picture begins to form of a sociopathic criminal..
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I can stand back and say; Look at that behavior; that is who this person is... and run away as fast as possible...
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ITs embarrassing to get caught up in something like this... I dont want to admit it; or tell anyone; its horrible. Im worth so much more then this. But; thats what the criminal wants me to do; they are setting me up; hopping they can control me; shut me down; keep me from talking about what they are doing to others so they can get away with it.
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The miracle for me is that I can see any of this at all.
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My goal was a complete change of view of this person...
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I saw them as a wife or a girlfriend or best friend; in reality; I was just being taken... these were a house full of criminals that victimize anyone dumb enough to cross their paths; They will play act any roll they can or want concerning taking advantage of people... They have no concious... they feel nothing.
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I noticed something strange about this girl; I thought; shes been around me long enough; why doesnt she get it; See me! value me. I mean; Ive been around for awhile; this doesnt make any sense. What's wrong with this situation( whats wrong with me). I was dealing with a sadistic pathological criminal; thats the problem... a monster... Thats the problem... Let the police deal with these sycophants; I am to get out of there and go find my life.
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So; the first girl I loved was a scumbag faking it... there was no one their but a fake fraud playing me for kicks; basically because a worthless scumbag pretending to be a human being... for real.. nothing more. So; getting use to this... I got played by some criminal type... thats all this really was; nothing more.... Ill move on away from that... slowly; not their yet; getting their... or working toward this..
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One thing I will say; I meet others like her in meetings; I have to remember; Im a decent person that they hate; they hate decent people; they are criminal minded and they have no value for someone like me; these scumbag criminals... its that simple; good vs evil... They are criminal lawless; no concious; nothing... as if no consequences.. unbelievable... I sit in meeting with them. Its easy to forget; I have to remember who I am; they will try to contempt me to the ground; breaking all the rules to do so...
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This is now moving into music creation... for my next blog...
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