June 2025
May 2025
Where am I at now Feb 1/ 2025
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CONCERNING RELATIONSHIP AND WOMEN;
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Ive now seen 2 women in front of me that I have somewhat interacted with that fit the bill; they fit the calling of what I was feeling and thinking on the inside. Are these women for real; or just fancy fantasy…
A very real chance they are simply guide posts on my way to bowing down correctly to Jesus; at the Jesus shrine… I must dig a deep deep hole; crawl into it and pray under Gods shrine; Im out in front of Gods shrine but Im in the whole with my face on the ground and hands out in front before God… and I stay that way and let the feeling of it feel; Just like a 5 year old in life… they are always looking upward to toward heaven and working with the sky and universe and God; always…
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I am not suppose to believe anything about these women. I am suppose to report back to my superiors; my commanding officers; GOD… I am to learn to be faithful to God first; focusing and only seeing Gods shrine in my head with the idea of bowing down to it in ways that continue to allow my growth under God… that I may be below God and receive Gods messages for me on how to live and what course of action to take and down what God pathway. And I have to learn how to run play work love and live down that pathway; and thus; its Gods pathway so I must work with God; I am not alone or in the dark… Not while God is out in front of me… And God is out in front of me ALL DAY LONG; when im down a God pathway. Must keep facing and God and talking to God; do the best I can here.
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NOTE; Humility is of the day; bowing down to my higher power about all things; Might-az-well; make a list; Everything I have no depth or development in; only ideas about things; Each idea has to be taken to my higher power and forged under ground. What does under the earth mean. It means the Shrine of God is in front of me and its tower is above me; I am below it; Better dig a deep whole the size for a coffin. Jump in; get on my knees before that shrine with head down to the dirt ground; on that messy ground… hands out in front with palms up if possible; and pray and wait in patience for my master to come. And that is all I am suppose to do; nothing more… My master Universe has gotten my message; Now I wait humbly until God surprises me with new manifestations and answers that show up in front of the shrine. I am in the back of the shrine. At some point after waiting patiently on God; with God; I sheepishly get up and walk walk beyond the shrine to see if anything has happened; and thus; a vat of energy appears; and I look and something is materializing; so I go back and wait… and then go back and look; and it has materialized and I slowly walk to it; take its hand and join it… it is mine now…
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And I Hope SO. I have to let go after trusting God… This whole process to be able to do this is a process; and one I forgot about. Now; its awakening in me because of my extreme spoil’dness laziness ; My entitlement attitude; Expectations and unreasonableness. I can only dig down entrench with God; in front of God, in that whole I made to pray in that takes me lower then the shrine I pray at; thus making it clear; I am below God not above; for I am asking for help; and those who ask for help and need help; they do not enter the hallways of the kings chambers where the King is having a lavish part; one does not just walk up to the Kings table and sit down; When one is powerless and in need one goes to the corner and sits on the floor unassuming and waits to be invited to the table… This is out of all realty; humility and respect for the King… And when takes a lowly position; it creates a vacuum for those who care or notice; a vacuum in the universe that the universe wants to fill; thus someone will approach if its meant to be; and they will ask if I want to join the table to talk to the King. But in no other way may this occur…
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If no one approaches me; I thus will talk to God; and walk out my way the way I came and God will lead me to another area for assistance…
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For I say to do; under God; Just as when Jesus grabbed fruit from the fruit tree and it would not give to him. Because the fruit tree denied him; He touched it and it withered away….. For it did not help Jesus to live and survive; Thus it was an evil plant that was bound up and thrown into the fire where all evil that is against God; where it ends up.
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A great lesson can be looked at from This; Even Jesus is not respected on planet earth; IF they will persecute Jesus on earth because He is innocent; How much more will this evil place attempt such things with me; to get away with it with me. For they have a deep set hatred and murderous spirit toward Jesus and thus they will also to me! And my haughty-ness forgets this at times and I must work with Jesus on this subject!
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I must learn to turn to Jesus for help to understand that I go back to my masters house to live; I don’t bother with the rest of the broken Landsrath… Meaning; the land people around me… The Orgs… Why would I expect anything from Orgs; They may look like me on the outside but on the inside; they zomby video games; they are zombie slayers… leave them be; they crawl by night and eat by day; stay away from them; Run and hide…
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I must turn to Jesus first; Before; not after… Does the General of an army; does he not plan before the battle; if he wants to stay alive; Not after. IF he is so dumb not to be wise about things first; He will surely be humiliated and pay…
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For me to treat the treacherous as good friendly teachers that Jesus sent me; to even think such nonsense; is asking for the Mule to kick me across the street! What was I thinking… They are not safe; those treacherous leaches… Do not give them an inch… Talk to Jesus first; bow down to Jesus and expect Nothing!>
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Im in the beginning of my energy slowly going to working at the Arts… That is my Hobby Occupation.
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As for relationship;
Im slowly developing with my higher power; slowly learn to bow down before My God and wait; I bow down deeply more n more; and more… I bow down deeply and keep at it over n over n over! Keep practicing until a relationship began with me and God… Deeper and deeper and deeper….
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I am aligning within questioning of those Ive seen or met; suddenly I can see similarities with myself and those women Ive met. Im shocked; it looks like I am learning to be inline with God; we will see.
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NOTE; Humility is of the day… On the renegade side of things; I keep wanting to fantasize and then go out into the world and mindlessly get it. But it never worked that way… For I was never really mindless and under the control of a higher power; I was under the control of nothing; and I ended up with nothing because I did not put the work out for anything. In my case; regardless; Im a guy that someone has to take responsibility for before I take action; for it never works for me. Im the guy that would always blind myself and walk out into the freeway and wonder why I was always getting repeatedly hit by the cars.. At some point I stopped beating myself up about it; I turned and walked away from the highway and learned to take my chances in life like everyone else. Id have to learn to work at things and have the same restrictions under the same rules as everyone else; no special pass or favors for me… Not from the world; not unless God made it so first; In order for that to happen; Id have to bow down to my higher power and plead with my higher power first and watch things manifest first and in my imagination first; under God and at the frequency of what God has in mind.
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NOTE; Im a guy who thought I could go anywhere; Wrong. I could not; anymore then the next Guy… I would think. I could go to a church and meet people; and I could go to a seamy trash bar on the wrong side a town and meet people; WRONG WRONG WRONG. NO NO NO! Im sorry; its not the same. In general; the people in the church are probably safer for my life health then in the seamy bar on the wrong side a downtown. So; that means; I cant go ANYWHERE; I want. It doesn’t work like that. And for me to get on the right side of town; and stay their and opporate from that place; lots of requirements.
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I saw what I saw; going through God; I see women who's personalities are similar to mine; almost a merrier of mine. Inline with mine. Haven't ever seen that before; like this; I believe because God is on my side; and Im getting more n more closer; closer to God; bowing down to God; closer to bowing down to God… over n over n over… in front of the shrine of God… over n over…
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So; this is about God; and Bowing down in front of God; over n over n over; until I go so deep I have a rich deep relationship with God learning to trust God for what I want in my life…
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However; its also about being helpless in front of God and not getting involved in what God will manifest for me. I manifest it in my imagination and wait upon God after bowing down to God; to have it appear in front of God… In Gods realm where he creates my manifestations.
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I have to stay out of it; I just desire it; and God goes from there…. I wait and watch humbly as I believe God will create it and thats whats been happening
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So; I want something; Its automatic; a part of me working under God is teaching me to let go and let God… let go; let it all fly away from my open hands and arms… and I just sit still and watch; wait and see God do his work; as he manifests its; and a special place behind him; thus it appears behind him. Those things I want that are from him… From God.
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I bow down and let them form like Angels of fireworks…
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And God puts life into those forms and because what I ask God for; what I wanted… And I bow down and let God supply them and I stay out of it., And that is what Im learning; the discipline to be in my place and stay in it! Amen. Under God…
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I still have allot of work to do; to simply automatically trained to go in my imagination; strait down on my knees before God in a hole fit for me on my knees before the shrine of God… Pray and wait…
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ON TAKING ACTION;
One must learn over a certain amount of time; if they can even participate; and that is to take action to see what will happen; to see if one is on the right track of manifestation.
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However; its; legal and preferable at first to take action in my imagination first..
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Sacrifice is of the day… I may have to give up everything else…
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I will have to believe I did or am….. and that is what Im learning today….
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God needs to be my eyes focus and only God and through God things are manifested but even then; eyes only on God. I am blinded to everything else… Below I go… down on my knees to my emperor; my friend Jesus Christ and the universe… The great Ancient Stars that over see earth and its people and the whole Galaxy. For they are living breathing Stars… And they are a group; and they are us in energy and rock form… They are like our sun; but they can speak and talk and feel and are alive as we are… And they talk to us… to me and I talk to them...I take order from them on how to live…
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FIRST LOVE; And what Im learning about it now!
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I did not take it to God first. Now; I re-in-act with God. I imagine Im on my knees first before I ever bring it up to God and then quickly put my head down between my knees and cover myself and pray and thank God and just stay their and see what decision God makes for me… what ever it may be… I focus on God not the outcome; only that with enough love from me God will choose something I guess. Not my business… and I wait upon God…
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So I look upward to God like a hungry child wanting food… pleading for food… under God; in front of God on the ground on my knees with hands out looking up to God for food… because Im running out of time… Running out of life…
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However; I wait patiently under God… waiting for Gods decision on things…
Waiting…
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And that is what Im learning; to let go…. For real… let go for real…
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I am learning to open my arms and let everything go; and sit quietly with God; waiting upon Gods decisions for my life… I may create my interests; God brings them to me… I stay out of it; I worship and honer God and then I began to see things behind God things he is manifesting for me; suddenly they are being created just as I saw in my imagination.
All is Magic…
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I am learning to open my arms and let everything go; and sit quietly with God; waiting upon Gods decisions for my life…
And this is what I have to learn how to practice… Amen.
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4th steps; and resentments; Working through them at night is the way of the day.
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