Want to know something funny?

Hitting my 1 1/2 years wasn't all that exciting. I'm actually MORE excited that my weekend is here.

I was (and am) grateful to be at 1 1/2 years - of that there's no doubt. But I've been working so much and so hard lately that I'm far more thrilled to have a couple of 'me' days.

Now the work I'm doing is actually rewarding and so it's like playing a great game of football and being exhausted from it. What I mean is, I'm not complaining, just explaining.

But I AM ready to just flop for a couple of days

And I LIKE THAT! I'm living again! I'm not redirecting my focus from addiction to recovery, but from addiction AND recovery to LIFE! As far as I'm concerned that is way better than just a milestone. It's a freaking miracle!

I will continue to be vigilant, but there's something so wonderful about thinking about life stuff again rather than just addiction and/or recovery. (Yet here I am, huh?) But like I've written before, I'm going to come here to blog my thoughts in order to recommit to the fight every chance I get and to get that glorious freedom that comes with organizing my thoughts and putting them down. I'm not sure what it is, but it REALLY helps me feel ... I was going to write 'good' there, but sometimes it's 'sad' sometimes 'afraid' sometimes 'angry'. So I guess it's accurate as is - it REALLY helps me feel. And that's enough. I'll take it.

I was reading some new posts tonight and responded to some and even after all this time, I STILL get so much from other people's stories. It fortifies me to know I'm not alone in this journey. I'm not a freak or exception, but rather a part of something that a variety of people go through. For me, that's a huge relief. This may sound weird, but I think that may be one of the reasons that coming to this site now feels like such a treat. I'm doing great in recovery but I owe a lot of that to the people who shared their stories here.

So thanks to all of you for helping me feel like I'm not alone. I'm grateful for that and I'll never get tired of saying so, I just hope everyone else here feels like that too.

Today I will not gamble. Never again.

You ar awesome!
I hope to get there.
Let today be day 1 for me.
Hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Hey Foofoo, thanks! Right back at ya!