Unbelievable. I just got off the phone with some girl from one of the sites I used to use to let me know I had 'free spins'.

When do they stop?!

I told her I wasn't interested and she had the gall to ask "Why not?" Like I owe an explanation. I didn't even get into that and responded with 'Please take me off your call list'. Pause. "Oh, okay." Then I hung up.

What a journey this is for an addict. They won't leave us alone. I'm so offended by these places that think their business profits take precedence over everything else. I realize the girl is just trying to earn a living so I wasn't rude to her, but I sure would like a couple of hours with the owner.

Anyway, I'm less offended with them, than I am impressed with me, so I'll just concentrate on the positive. I'm in control of this ride now & it feels good. I may not be the best driver in the world, but I'm doing okay and getting better. Works for me.

I posted a blog a while back wondering if they know 'timing' of people who try to quit, & the fact that they called as I'm approaching the end of 7 months (and celebrating it big time!) I have to ask... Was I right?

Is it possible they have a time frame from the last time you were at their site and a schedule for when to call? Could they be that cold and unfeeling? I'm probably being paranoid, but it sure does make you wonder. Why now? Why at all? And why is the caller ID 'Unknown' if they're just calling up to connect with customers? IS it just coincidence?

I'm going to brace for more calls in the next week or so & see if I'm right. Hope I'm not, but we'll see.

The good news is, that the call didn't awaken any urges in me, just the opposite. It's inspired me to get away from these people as fast as my little feet can take me.

I was so worried about the monster behind the door, I forgot he had a phone too. But ultimately, I am not going back to being a plaything for the rich & heartless. I'm going to be better than that. I'm going to be free. And in 3 days I'm going to be starting my 8th month of being just that. Free!

Today I will not gamble. Never again