Today is a milestone day. The end of my 6th month of not gambling.

I thought I'd be more excited, but you know what? I'm not. It's great, don't get me wrong, but I'm just not feeling 'Whoop! I did it!' In fact, it just feels like an ordinary day.

I've stopped monitoring my time each day or week (but I still notice the months). I'm no longer worrying about it. I've stopped having a life that was first controlled by gambling & then (I think necessarily) by quitting. I just FEEL like I used to feel before I got hooked on the insanity of it all.

And THAT is so cool.

I've, honest to God, gotten my life back. A real life where I can focus on real things. Gambling isn't anywhere on the horizon. I realize I can never gamble again, but it doesn't bother me in the least. There's no sadness at the thought, and no fear at the thought of not succeeding anymore. I've found a balance between being worried about failure and being cocky about success, add in a little bit of sincere gratitude, and it's a great place to be.

No big blog entry today, just a few words to acknowledge 6 full months of being free from the gambling demon, and the adventure of entering month 7... or maybe I should call it entering 'life 2' instead, because it sure feels like a new life. My only wish for this day is that someone, somewhere reads this and says, 'If that guy can do it, so can I.' Because it's the truth. You can. You so can. Just start with the next sentence.

Today I will not gamble. Never again.

Congrats!

Hi ladyswan & thanks! I didn't realize there'd be any comments, so I've never looked... so... thanks for the congrats on Month 5 too! Hope I didn't miss any other comments, but if I did, I wasn't ignoring anyone, just being blissfully ignorant.
Stress the 'bliss'.