i am so lost with all thats going on i have days i just burst out in tears. im 52 for gods sake and im in tears. i have half a mind to just turn up at a&e a day after overdosing on paracetamol when its too late to go back and just let my self die. i cant cope with life day to day i dont know whats wrong its all falling apart. death doesnt scare me and to take a move with the likes of parecetamol where it can be too late and death will follow seems like a good idea. i dont care ill die in pain once im dead ill know nothing about it.how did i get to such a down point in my life. i was sectioned twice last year for attempted suicide and i just hate myself for failing. if my sex drive would return as it was id just go out and be as bad as i was untill i was locked up or re tagged and then i know id deserve it. its all a mess i cant cope with. i dont care about myself or anyone else now i just seem to be in self destruct mode and it wont end well. im so lonely where i live ive gone stir crazy. maybe if i just go batter someone they can lock me up and ill be out of everyones hair and less of a danger.sod this lkife its too much. now i hit the booze and benzoes to calm down but it wont be long before that isnt enough. im not a nice person ill use anyone to kill my grief. to hell with this world there are ways out.

Hugs and please don't take too much Tylenol.

We're the same age and I get in tears, too. I'm an abject failure. But hey I'm still hanging in there. Just do the best you can, sweets.