stopped all my meds and given up on any hope of a future. nature can take its course. when you realize that the people that are supposed to help are just going through motions and they wish they could be spending time on something else then its time to give up. they will leap at the chance to stop seeing me,its the way they are. thats fine ,i want to see their faces when theres not a dam thing they can do as i get back to how i was. they know what will happen and it will frustrate the hell out of the consultant that he cant do a dam thing about it. hes a lieing two faced person anyway so he deserves all he gets. my only joy in life now will be to rub it in his face any opportunity i get. i know he referred me to the gender clinic to see me fail but im always one step ahead of him. after he referred me there was no more mention of it not even a 5 minute chat and i soon worked out what he was doing. now ive woken up and realized the only way to go ill make sure i have the last laugh over him.