bad weekend. no one to help. mental health is a load of waffle. the counseling they talked about has never happened. the couple of times in 9 months ive seen my case worker its been a joke she just want to say she saw me but does nothing. she is supposed to ring from time to time to check on me,but nothing. its all rubbish.i did nothing wrong before just got tired and had a few bad days.the gum and mental health persuaded me it was more. i should have walked away when mental health dumped me. why did i fall for their false promise of help when i have nothing wrong.i realized they have only ever let me say wats wrong they have never talked to me to say what they think.im being conned by them.i wanted some advice on why i kicked off occasionally but that was it. theres nothing mentally wrong with me they have let me talk myself into it. if i walked out tomorrow they wouldnt care,they would be pleased. proves to me they are justl letting me talk my way into trouble. they gave me mood stabilizers which turned out to give me a right mood drop with thoughts of self harm when the dose was increased but even though they know and ive told them theres no help or even a phone call to check during or after a dose rise.they are hoping i will drop myself in it. like every body else ive trusted they are taking me for a fool.why i believed them i dont know. i was ok before them and had no problems,now they have given me some. i would just walk out and bin the meds but then they would win and thats not happening. ill play their game. ill be mr happy patient . in between visits im going back to my old self. tell them nothing they dont care. if they give another dose increase ill just not take it they never know.they do it to prove im not stable when infact its the drug that causes it. they conspire with the other doctors i was had by the lot of them. well i can play the game better than them they are armatures. the pdoc tried to say i was doing something wrong but it never came to anything so he lied like he thinks he can. he lies ill lie back to him. i havnt done thing wrong its them making things up so they can say they are treating me. good thing for me is because they dont bother i can just stop the meds they wouldnt care or know. i dont trust the hiv drugs are needed.all these doctors lie to say they are treating people. i might stop them as well and get out of the conspiracy doctors run. like anyone else ive met ive learnt to never trust them they will have you over