couldnt think of a title. new years eve and ive become the invisible person again. hate them all the set of bastards. sure they do it on purpose to wind me up. nicey nicey when they want something then sod him when it might involve anything like being a friend. its like christmas and all the other holidays,excuses after if they happen to run into me. id rather run over them. im a big fool for keep trying to help even though i know they will dump me after. one day they will do it once to often and ill have the last laugh. with any luck my gender change will go forward and i have every intention of never talking to those people again. i know they will try their best to say hello just to see if its still possible to wind me up but ill just ignore them or a swift sod off and get back to your sad life should suffice. when people treat you like that it give you such a sense of being worthless and bad that the next time you try to make up for it and its back to the same routine. im sure i imagine im more welcome than i actually am and go a bit hyper but im never sure. im sure with the bi polar ive gone off into hyper land too many times but theres also been something odd as well.