ive made my decision to follow my need to attend the gender clinic and follow that route.i have no friends to help but i hope ill find some true friends along the way,not like the lowlifes i thought were friends. to say i have no feelings for them is not quite right i hope they have nothing but bad luck and a slow painful death. bit over the top but they have shown their real selfish selves. i was there to help so many times even though it cost me but they were just using free help with a false friendship front.
anyway now i have nothing to hold me back,even family dont seem to care, i feel like i can start a new.how far i can get i dont know but if i dont try ill never find out. i wish the moods would settle down and im hoping so much the new drug when its up to working dose will level me out. if it doesnt i dread the future.