got the electronic tag removed as all i want ot do is go back to the saunas and have the roughest sex i can get. hope i can catch hep c again so i can spread the gift. thrown all my hiv meds away im not interested in been treated for that anymore id rather be infectious.ive lost the plot and just into self destruct mode and i dont care who gets caught up innthe way thats there bad luck. got taken in for threataning suicide but it was all a joke, kepts waiting hours to see a psyc doc who spent 15 mins before deciding i was ok to go howm . i even told him i hated my old consultant and wished him nothing but death at one point but mental health up here is a joke. my life is screwed so i intend to screw as many lifesup as i can before i either die or get locked up. ill go down fighting. if i ever get the balls up ill go through with my suicide plan. i hate the world. im going stir crazy stuck in this open prision of a house and its cracked me up

Jody. Sweet pea.

Hugs!

But dude. Seriously.

What if some of these guys are on the DL? I think men who would use you are scum-and I think you're worth more than you seem to think of yourself- but even so if you were to do that, think of the others you might potentially hurt if some of these men have people depending on them. Families. It's not their fault, baby doll. Please think about wider unintended consequences. The possibility of spouses or offspring paying for another's actions takes this from the simple realm of caveat emptor, to something else. I like you, Jody, but frankly I expect better of you than this.

I know you're in a horrid place right now, and I wish so much for things to get better for you. But hurting yourself and others, with the potential for a ripple effect into even more lives that have nothing to do with you, whatsoever, is not something you need to be contemplating. Please stay safe, hon.