Every website I go on dedicated to ocd talks about unwanted thoughts and how everyone has them, well unlike everyone else I don't just have thoughts anymore is used to be but not anymore now if feel attracted to men I don't just get the feelings associated with attraction I ligetmitly feel attracted when I masterbate I get this strong genuine urge to suck cock I also find women disgusting this doesn't sound like ocd I was diagnosed with OCD 3 years ago well three years ago everything was just limited to thoughts these days I ligetmitly have a desire for men that came out of nowhere the attraction is unwanted and the desire is unwanted because it came out of nowhere. I don't want to live like this I want to like women again but God intended on something else I guess.