I want to believe I'm bisexual but it's so hard to maintain that, the reality is that I want to go back to how I was before but I know that that's not possible which is why I reluctantly want to believe I'm bisexual the problem is that I'll sit there and say I doesn't matter just let yourself feel this way it's fine you can still live a normal life but than I start feeling comfortable and it's not under the.exact circumstances that I want so I get more and more anxious, I don't know what to do, the scariest thing to me is the possibility that I'll be like this forever now I differ from people with ocd because they suffer from immense doubt about there obsessions while I can pinpoint exactly why I'm depressed I also don't dread the idea of having a guy I just don't want to find me. Attractive or have fantasies about them and the occasional time when I feel more straight I feel so relieved and like a weight has left me but it's always temporary and it's NEVER to the extent that it was 8 months ago and it saddens me. I guess I'll have to live with it but it's just so hard and (I think) I've done everything I can think of to either accept.it or just ignore it I just feel like I'm all out of options