Most peopl people on the ocd forum don't seem to find me attractive (if it's sexual ocd) when I go on to the paraphilias forum there are people who have latent attractions, that seems to be the ONE difference between me and an ocd sufferer. Would I actually have to live my life finding men attractive? Why did it have to come now? The only thing unwanted is my attraction to men and the fact that I don't know what Iwant just sucks. But men are just so hot. A person in sexuality forum suggests a website called nocd which has licensed therapists who specializes in ocd but I'm afraid I really kind of prefer the uncertainty and If I got it confirmed by a professional than it could send me into an imense state of depression I also find women disgusting somewhat, I hate this I just want my old life back. I don't have a feared possiblity of something I just feel depressed because I'm like well great what do things gotta be like this life sucks

If you're really gay, you're not going to be happy unless you have a man. There can be a lot of angst about being LGBT but if it's real, you're going to be drawn to it and at the same time you hope you're not gay, I think you kinda hope you are, too- at least that's how it's been for me. I'd rather not be bisexual but I used to look for confirmation that I was, and if I didn't get it I really didn't like to hear that- and I can only guess that's because I'm bi and I wants what I wants. I think only you can decide what you are- but if OCD is in the mix having a therapist can't hurt.

And what do you mean about folks on the OCD forum not finding you attractive? Wasn't aware folks were being attracted (or not attracted) to each other- however you answer, don't divulge anything about private messages! that would be against forum rules. But I don't quite understand what you mean by that.

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