When I'm not that anxious I still find men attractive a part of me says "yeah I can live with this" I don't like it but when I'm less anxious and able to look at it objectively I can say with absolute certainty that men are hot. The worst part about it is that I don't want to do anything with a guy and to my knowledge I didn't find men attractive prior to 8 months ago so I don't have a history of it.
I really wish I could explain why I'm like this I don't get it, I should probably stop asking questions and just let things happen but it's so hard.
Oh well at least I still read straight erotica.