It all just really sucks for the past month and a half I've just felt mentally exhausted I wish things could go back to normal or that I could just be at peace with myself I just want all this to end ,would medication be a good option? I don't know I'm afraid to tell my therapist and doctor because I think they'll confrm my fears I just want to see this end, whenever I see an attractive man I cringe I wonder if it's possible for me to not cringe, of course it's possible why wouldn't it be, cringing is like an addiction it's hard to stop. This thing is just so mentally exhausting whenever I feel a little better I always go back to feeling anxious and the anxiety isn't strong like it was a lifetime ago. I see an attractive guy and I'm anxious as a biproduct of finding him attractive and to an extent I don't even know if I'd call it anxiety, I cringe but that's really the extent that my reaction has. This whole ordeal is just so mentally exhausting it feels like I've run a mile everyday(at least mentally) I've almost gotten to a point where I'm just like "hey at least I still find women attractive" but apparently I can't accept that I really wish I could I am just at my wits end and I hope writing this post will ileaviate some of my... Stress? Yeah it's stress.