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Permanent Linkby Kaleb28 on Tue Sep 07, 2021 1:05 am

Why whyyy of all things this whole sexuality struggle is the worst thing ever man I miss my old days when I had ocd and it was actually ocd I honestly want that back. like bi/gay people I can masterbate to guys and find them attractive like ocd people I stress and obsess unlike bi/gay people I only liked women for a long time I really wish I didn't like women in the first place it would have made this a hell of a lot easier. honestly I'd rather not have a relationship than try one period. I can't imagine living my life like this like even when I'm not stressed it feels terrible this is literally one of THE worst things that could have happened to me I was all happy so why why does my dumb brain want to change now, or was it always there was it always repressed I wish I could go back in time to a year ago with all the thoughts, feelings and fantasies I used to have. now I masterbait to men somewhat I find them attractive I want to stop obsessing but than I'll just be depressed maybe? I don't know life sucks I've literally lost an interest in women i literally just want to wipe my mind of all my previous memories so I can go on with my life because than I wouldnt give a ###$ about the fact that I find men attractive or might want to suck cock I WOULDNT CARE ABOUT MY LACK OF INTREAST IN WOMEN I need to talk to an ocd therapist but I'm afraid that there gonna tell me I don't have ocd. I'd rather live with stressfull optimism than hopeless depression i literally don't want to kiss a woman anymore. even if it is ocd I'd still be bisexual a relationship just isn't worth it I go between feeling like I'm accepting it to feeling terrible. I want to suck cock, man I just want to live in a forest and not deal with people even when I kind of know what I want I just dislike it when ever I see an attractive man it's distressing life could have been so wonderful I could of had a woman someday and lived a great life and now I think I might still be able to have a woman but it's because I chose a relationship with the opposite sex I really wish there was somebody similar to me the ocder's on this site don't seem similar to my condition the bi people seem more similar to me but they can put the puzzle pieces together I can't or maybe I'm not letting my self even when I'm not stressed these attractions still exist the only time I ever feel good is when I first wake up in the morning life just isn't ######6 worth it... Or maybe it is i just want to sleep forever why was I hoodwinked for 7 ######6 years why couldn't my stupid brain of showed me this sooner things would have been a lot ######6 better.

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