I was talking to my step dad about moving and I told him I'm pretty indifferent about most people if you my sister or my mother died, I'd feel sad but I'd be able to live and go on with my life (I'm not saying I wish that upon them, I was just going to the extreme to show how indifferent I tend to be,. My grandmother died last year and I was the only one who wasn't crying and I was joking about her a couple days after she died). When he asked me about moving I told him that I'm still in-between on staying and moving and when I said that he said, "I don't know I feel like I've raised you 99% of your life and I feel like I messed up". I've never been particularly close with him every conversation I have is akward and unatural he has a short temper and cares way to much about small things. Whenever he would get home from work there was always this tiny bit of anxiety that I would get because of his temper and anal cleanliness, I will admit I'm not the cleanist person but I don't leave dishes lying around. I'm so close to just leaving and going to my dad's without explanation. My mother tells me my sister needs me and both my sister and stepdad get into arguments. Should I be an asshole and leave or should I go. I wish somebody could give me an answer but nobody knows me personally and even then everybody has there own values so I'd still have to figure it out myself. I'm so close to just being an asshole and leave, but I know that if I was in my sister's position I'd probably want my sibling there with me. I'm so conflicted. This is hard on me but I'm sure this is harder in my 13 year old sister, but I really don't want to move out of state with him, I like being close to my paternal family, I just don't like the fact that he thinks he's entitled to my presence