I don't know what I want anymore I kind of find women attractive but I also find men attractive it's like I've practically lost my physical attraction to women but not my sexual attraction and I've gained a physical attraction to men but I don't think I could have sex with him the the jury is still out on that one. I just don't know what I want anymore I want my old self back so bad I try not to obsesse over the past because it gives me false hope but it just sucks I don't see how it's possible in the future for me to go back to exclusively liking women but hey I gained an attraction to men so maybe it's possible, I just feel so depressed which makes sense because I lost something about my self (so the greiving process?) It's like when I see an attractive woman occasionally I also see an attractive man and it's like what do I want I'm just not sure and in many cases that attraction to women is just not existent or only somewhat there it's like when a person talks about an attractive woman it doesn't feel like I can relate to that because I can't it's gone beyond being thoughts to being physical and I hate it I'm just ######6 depressed I just want one thing but than physically I don't