I think the hardest thing with my obsessions is the fact that I'm always anxious and depressed to some degree, so I can't look at it objectively (im also afraid to) I really just want to settle on something, anything I guess, to hell with what I used to be it's hard for me to let go of my past and as much as I don't want to come to terms to with all this I just should. About 3-4 months ago I was on another OCD forum on another mental health website and 3/4 four people where saying It probably wasn't ocd, who knows whatever I am I hope I can just accept it someday and move on, I dread this lasting years if so we'll i guess I'm in for a bit of a struggle.