Stress has become my natural state when I try to quell the stress it always just feels normal when I go into a sexuality forum I just get so Sade I don't think I have an attraction to men I know I do I just don't like it I wish my attraction to women was stronger than it than it is now I honestly wish I was asexual I sometimes get disgusted by women as well these days wish never ever happened during previous episodes but I'm also 17 so I guess I'm still going through puberty who the ###$ knows


I don't get the Ed on by anything because of my stress I wish I could go back to normal i remember my aunt telling me that when she first figured out she was gay it took her a few years to accept it because she wanted to be normal well I wish I could go back to normal but instead I'm not I want to just talk to someone but it will be just useless rambling sadly I don't know what I want