The title pretty much somes up my one major problem,. I don't want help, I mean I do want help but I don't want to go down the path that will help me. My therapist told me during our last session that it hurts that I can accept other people for being of another sexuality but I can't accept myself for being not straight. The biggest thing is that I feel alone, I also have a conflict of interest on one hand I want to find a male who's sexually fluid and on another I don't want to because that would mean that this is all real. Though I guess it's not the end of the world if it's real I've gone from likeing women exclusively to almost likeing men exclusively so who's to say in 8 years time that might change it could even change sooner or not at all which saddens me. But than that's the problem I have a bias against myself being gay and I shouldn't,. But I'm afraid of what will happen If I stop caring, so I'm afraid of the unknown. I guess I do feel a lot of shame in not being ok with being not straight sadly. This post is making me sad I think my parents are gonna have a big fight soon so I have the animals in the room, ugh can't wait