I wonder, if I could wipe my memory up to this point I think if potentially be more comfortable with all this, I'd say the only thing keeping me from moving forward is my obsession with my past it's so hard to move past it because I want it back I hate looking at both men and women it really sucks even when I'm less stress it still exist the only peace I get are the first few seconds in the morning when I wake up, honestly falling asleep is the hardest, I wonder if I should start taking melatonin.