I kind of wonder I do have ocd as well because when I check I always check to see if I'm still attracted to and when I try to masterbate to a guy I don't stop because i find it disgusting (I don't know whether I do or not) I stop because that just means more and more that it's true and I'd rather masterbate to women, maybe that's why I put an emphasis on my depression in my last post on this 5 page long thread that I've written on but than agian there was this guy on the end of my street who was pretty attractive so who knows maybe it is ocd but it's morphed into another form, who knows