I'm afraid to look at men, so I was on Reddit earlier and I went to a nude section and the men where hot perticularly there bodies and butts I can't figure out whether I want to go back or not, I'm afraid to go back but I don't know if...if, I've lost my train of thought (I'm trying to lay out my thoughts in text format if that makes sense). I can't figure out if I want, want to. One thing I know for sure is that I don't want to go back because they are attractive (I might of said something oxi-moronic). And (even though I've mentioned this numerous times) I envy people who are straight why just why I don't get it why me why could this be beastiality why does it have to be this sexuality that's been inverted. huuugh

So you'd rather have a paraphilia for animals then merely be attracted to men? That sounds rather OCDish to me. Personally, I'd rather have a man.