I almost forgot to write today. So yeah, the family reunion passed without incident. My dad did get brought up, but only a few times as a passing mention. That went pretty well for me. But I think the only reason it did was because there wasn’t much of my dad’s side of the family there. Guess they couldn’t bring themselves to come with him gone, even though he hadn’t shown up there for several years in a row since before he died. No matter, I’m just glad things went as well as they did. I did, however, get one flashback when it got dark with all those people there. It reminded me of a time when there were a lot of people down there and it was dark enough and everyone else was preoccupied enough for my dad to sneak me away. I may or may not post about that flashback soon. I’m not sure how much it has bothered me yet. We’ll see… I’m just trying to find solace in that I didn’t have to hear people talking favorably of my dad again. Hopefully it lasts.

Chels91 wrote:I’m not sure how much it has bothered me yet. We’ll see…

Well if it doesn't I suppose that's a good thing- although if you have a sense that the flashback should bother you, then know it bugs the hell out of me on your behalf, so I'll take up the slack and you don't have to feel as if you ought to be bothered. On a more serious note, the only way I think to heal is for it to become something that doesn't bother you, something sloughed off and moved past. There will always be those of us pissed on your behalf- something about 'burdens shared are halved' and all that.

It's been lingering in my head since it happened. Even if it doesn't get to me, it's still enough to bother me as it's probably not a good sign. I went and vented about it in another entry, hoping that'll take care of that. We'll see.