It's been a while since I've made an entry here. Even though I have still been active on the trauma front, just on other sites. I'm still talking to other survivors of childhood trauma, which has mostly been going okay, but it's also been a bit of a mixed bag since the occasional creep is simply (and sadly) a given on this subject. I can say I still haven't had that problem here yet. By this point, I'm a bit surprised that I haven't considering how frequent they always tend to be. You'd think there would be more here!

As usual, I've gotten a few who have been blatant about getting aroused by my experiences when I would open up about them in detail. But that still doesn't bother me as much as it probably should. I think in part, because some have been fellow survivors who struggle with hypersexuality and can't help but get aroused by memories of being abused. They have a problem and some are able to admit that, at least. I've never been one to get easily offended anyhow. So long as they remain mostly decent and try to turn our discussion into something else, I can put up with it.

Then there's those are just straight perverts. Those ones are always easy to make, though. They almost always waste no time in wanting to know the details. That or they'll use vulgar language like "cock" or "pussy", even after I've politely asked them not to. They can never help themselves and get carried away when they're becoming aroused. It just shows what little self-control they have. They often get at their worst when I get enough and tell them I'm opting out of our convo, which still gets me some classy responses when they're clearly angered by me not entertaining them.

A few have insisted on talking about my sex life during my adulthood or inquiring if I have tried or would be interesting in trying role-playing my molestation. They seem to think that I must be hypersexual from my trauma and that makes me an easy target for them to get off on. I'm sure some were asking out of genuine curiosity but those who have had ulterior motives, they eventually run out of my patience when I keep steering the conversation away from that and will either go off on me or just stop replying.

They still don't bother me one bit. Mainly because I remain anonymous with most of the people I converse with, so they have no way of stalking me on other platforms or any of actually gaining a foothold in my life. By that, I mean I don't exchange my email, phone number, social media or anything that gives anyone leverage to be any serious threat to me. I have only ever video chatted with a few, but they have mostly been other women. One was a man, but after he got weird during our video call, I've avoided video chatting with men again, just to be safe (to be fair, a few women have gotten weird too).

If anything, these creeps are just a mild annoyance to me. Some might have been a disappointment because they seemed convincingly normal enough for me to enjoy conversing with them, but it's never enough to ruin my day. The only time I ever get really bothered when I think of other survivors they prey on who are not so astute or thick-skinned. I know there are plenty out there being taken advantage of. I try not to think about that too much, though. It can't be helped. All I can do is look after myself and I think I do a good job of that.

Chels91 wrote:I can say I still haven't had that problem here yet. By this point, I'm a bit surprised that I haven't considering how frequent they always tend to be. You'd think there would be more here!

There's not more here because this is what I do to them the moment I get even a whiff of 'here for the faps':


There are venues for fappery, this ain't it. Nothing- and I do mean, nothing- pisses this admin off quicker than someone going after folks in Sexual Abuse or Sexual Addiction.

And, if one slips by my guard, all you have to do is report the PM, and then I will take a look, and I will judge for myself. And if they're found wanting, then they be gone-gone.

I appreciate cracking down on them so well. I wish the staff on other sites would actively take measures to make their places for survivors of sex abuse. Thank you, as always, for all you do.