Had my first session in two weeks today. I went over how I still struggle with self-loathing on how I was willingly partaking in being molested for the first several years. She pretty much just said everything she’s already told me before, just said more thoroughly, if anything. Not that that’s a bad thing. It actually helped hearing it from her again. I felt silly feeling better about it just from her saying what she’s said to me all over again and she just said it’s easy to forget when one has a lot of pent up shame and guilt. That it just doesn’t go away so easily even when you understand full well that you’re not at fault for how things went, that I may forget again soon, but she’ll be there to remind me. I suppose that makes sense. I just have to practice cutting myself a break and getting these lessons to register in my mind.

It's one thing to understand and know something. But to have someone- a professional someone- validate that is something else entirely.